tell me we're all in this together and if we're not then tell me lies
it's been so long that i don't even follow anyone from my icons anymore lmao like i still have lu han and kr*s in here? wild. i've long since moved on from kpop, got back into anime & seiyuus for another few years.
now? now i watch baseball games and finally fell into JE. the very thing i'd been avoiding for over 15 years. i remember when real face came out! my cousin was soooo into kat-tun and news that i remember going down to see family and she'd introduce me to whatever she was into; most of the time it was anime, but there was real face one summer, some arashi songs another summer (truth is the only one i still listen to to this day). no i'm not into kt now, it's another group i've known about for a long, long time: Hey! Say! JUMP. it's been a solid month. a solid, spiral of a month in this messy year. of course my friend talks about yamada for two months straight. i listen, look him up, nod along, i brainstorm ideas with her. i remember the weekend before ookami seinen short dropped i was tweeting about how enthralled i was.
then monday. 10/11. horrible day for my productivity because i see it at nine in the morning and can't do anything else through work. that day on i gave up. i spent another five hours on another day trying to tell them apart in the pv which, if you don't know, they're all covered with hoods and masks, and face paint to mask their eyes. so i learned their names before i learned their faces. i knew chinen was the shortest, yuto was tall and lanky, and obviously i knew yamada. now i'm stuck watching itajan and reading interviews i can find because it's not JE fandom without everything under passwords and f-locks.
so this year is fucked up, but honestly the album announcement today gave me a reason to live for another month at least. it's going. everything is different but it's stayed the same in my life. new friends, same old problems except now i'm in my mid-20s and i write a little more than i used to.