drabbles make the world go 'round.
I just... don't know.
I've had a crappy day, therefore I write crappy angst!drabbles with a little help from the lovely random pairing generator.
Muaha.
Fuck you $200 fine.
kibum / kangin / not yet
Rating: PG
Length: 313 words
The time isn’t right for him to delve into his emotions. The time isn’t right for him to voice his concerns that he’s wanted to say for a long time now because simply, there isn’t room for it. The hyungs don’t know about how Kangin stares off into the distance when they’re not looking, crawling deeper and deeper into himself until he becomes only a mere shell of who he used to be.
The dongsaengs don’t notice this either because, well… it’s Kangin. Kangin doesn’t have deep feelings and he’s always happy. Kibum, however notices and has for a while now. He sees the broken look in his hyung’s eyes when they stare into the sky on their way to performances. He sees the man who used to be and he sees the man he knows he can be.
But that man is gone, and the empty shell has taken over.
He doesn’t really listen to the others in the car, only stares at the back of Kangin’s head who’s lost in his own thoughts. When Ryeowook nudges his arm and he turns his head, Kibum feels himself frowning and growing angrier by the second as the magnae does not see the twinkle in his hyung’s eyes that has vanished. The tug of his lips looks strangled but as Ryeowook turns his attention back to Kyuhyun, a look of relief washes over Kangin’s face and he returns to his solitude.
Kibum grits his teeth but keeps silent.
It’s not time for him to ask questions. It’s not the time for him to comfort and to help Kangin no matter how much he wants to. And he hates the others for not seeing what he sees.
Kibum catches sight of the tear that trickles down his hyung’s cheek and he feels his chest tighten but once again keeps quiet.
It isn’t time. Not yet.
siwon / kangin / he must be hiding something
Rating: PG
Length: 306 words
It takes a month and Siwon notices. He stops in his tracks when he hears sobs coming from the bathroom, the shower running full force and water crashing against the bathroom tiles. He removes his hand from the door handle and backs away, a deep breath being taken as he closes his eyes and rests his back against the wall.
He knows that Kangin is in the shower right now and he knows he should do something but can’t bring himself to do so. Words are lost in his mouth and he grips his shirt just above his heart. Siwon bites down on his lower lip, and shudders at the continuing sound of sobbing that resounds through the hallway of their dorm.
He doesn’t know what to do; doesn’t know what to say.
But as the shower turns off, he glances up and sees Kangin standing in the door with a confused look on his face - a white towel draped around his wet hair and his lower body. ”What are you doing, sitting here on the floor like that?” he asks and Siwon looks at him with deep sorrow in his eyes. Kangin pretends not to see it and whacks him on the side of his head, a wide smile brushing over his flushed face - no doubt flushed from crying. ”Idiot. Go to sleep, it’s one in the morning. I’m going to bed anyway, g’night!”
He watches Kangin turn away from him and walk down the hallway and Siwon quietly thinks to himself that Kangin is hiding something from the others.
But Siwon doesn’t do anything about it and leaves it be; simply because he feels too shocked from knowing that Kangin cries in the shower to make his body move or say anything. And because of this, Siwon’s heart breaks into a million little pieces.
I've had a crappy day, therefore I write crappy angst!drabbles with a little help from the lovely random pairing generator.
Muaha.
Fuck you $200 fine.
kibum / kangin / not yet
Rating: PG
Length: 313 words
The time isn’t right for him to delve into his emotions. The time isn’t right for him to voice his concerns that he’s wanted to say for a long time now because simply, there isn’t room for it. The hyungs don’t know about how Kangin stares off into the distance when they’re not looking, crawling deeper and deeper into himself until he becomes only a mere shell of who he used to be.
The dongsaengs don’t notice this either because, well… it’s Kangin. Kangin doesn’t have deep feelings and he’s always happy. Kibum, however notices and has for a while now. He sees the broken look in his hyung’s eyes when they stare into the sky on their way to performances. He sees the man who used to be and he sees the man he knows he can be.
But that man is gone, and the empty shell has taken over.
He doesn’t really listen to the others in the car, only stares at the back of Kangin’s head who’s lost in his own thoughts. When Ryeowook nudges his arm and he turns his head, Kibum feels himself frowning and growing angrier by the second as the magnae does not see the twinkle in his hyung’s eyes that has vanished. The tug of his lips looks strangled but as Ryeowook turns his attention back to Kyuhyun, a look of relief washes over Kangin’s face and he returns to his solitude.
Kibum grits his teeth but keeps silent.
It’s not time for him to ask questions. It’s not the time for him to comfort and to help Kangin no matter how much he wants to. And he hates the others for not seeing what he sees.
Kibum catches sight of the tear that trickles down his hyung’s cheek and he feels his chest tighten but once again keeps quiet.
It isn’t time. Not yet.
siwon / kangin / he must be hiding something
Rating: PG
Length: 306 words
It takes a month and Siwon notices. He stops in his tracks when he hears sobs coming from the bathroom, the shower running full force and water crashing against the bathroom tiles. He removes his hand from the door handle and backs away, a deep breath being taken as he closes his eyes and rests his back against the wall.
He knows that Kangin is in the shower right now and he knows he should do something but can’t bring himself to do so. Words are lost in his mouth and he grips his shirt just above his heart. Siwon bites down on his lower lip, and shudders at the continuing sound of sobbing that resounds through the hallway of their dorm.
He doesn’t know what to do; doesn’t know what to say.
But as the shower turns off, he glances up and sees Kangin standing in the door with a confused look on his face - a white towel draped around his wet hair and his lower body. ”What are you doing, sitting here on the floor like that?” he asks and Siwon looks at him with deep sorrow in his eyes. Kangin pretends not to see it and whacks him on the side of his head, a wide smile brushing over his flushed face - no doubt flushed from crying. ”Idiot. Go to sleep, it’s one in the morning. I’m going to bed anyway, g’night!”
He watches Kangin turn away from him and walk down the hallway and Siwon quietly thinks to himself that Kangin is hiding something from the others.
But Siwon doesn’t do anything about it and leaves it be; simply because he feels too shocked from knowing that Kangin cries in the shower to make his body move or say anything. And because of this, Siwon’s heart breaks into a million little pieces.