better to have loved and lost?
why is that everyone i take an interest in, is already spoken for? and its not just these last few days. for instance, last year, started to go out with someone and to find out that when i was ready to make my move, she was taken. and when i tried to patch things up with elyse, she wasnt having it. and at work, rachel, shes a sweetheart and all, but shes been taken as long as i know. and now, its hard enough to look at her without doing everything in my power to stop myself from doing something that not only i would regret, but might alienate her as well.
so today was a day off (YAY!). and so i decided to go to christines for a while, hung out there, got some free food, movie watching.. fun had by all. then from there i went out to amandas, and i caught the last half of "how to lose a guy in ten days" i mean, it wasnt a bad movie, but i wouldnt spend money to see it... which i didnt. and i was there for a couple hours, then i went back to christines, and from there we went to unos. turns out that someone we all knew works there and actually was our "server". guess "waitress" isnt used anymore. whatever. so we get a pizza, as thats nearly ALL they serve. we eat, joke, make lots of innuendo and make an ass out of ourselves. oh, and lance was there, prolly should have mentioned that. anyways, we leave and go to elyse's house to see if she was home... which she wasnt. which i suppose is a good thing, because there isnt any really good feelings between us, but lance wanted to see if she was home. but her dad was, and we joked around a bit, mainly because hes an old man :).
then we went to the commons, and we started out on the swings, then to the play structure, and then i went to the baby swing, seems more like a strung-up car seat. and during my little diversion, turns out christine managed to fall on her knee and bang it up some... POOR BABY! so i try and see what i can do with my limited knowledge of anatomy (well, APPLICABLE anatomy at the time) and i notice that there was a little brusing of the kneecap. so then we just have her sit down on a swing and relax for a while. we leave, and head for home.
get back to her house and lance goes his own way... thats fine, he was only a chaperone anyways (not that id do anything... conscience and all). i get her all comfy and stuff, and she receives the obligatory bitching at by her mother.. apperently, shes cheating on her bf with me... well! isnt that nice to tell me about. i mean, sure we cuddle n stuff, but nothing has happened yet. so that goes by and we go to the living room and sit on her couch, and just relax... did everything i could to make her comfortable. and then she breaks down and cries on my shoulder about everything. i mean, this is news to me as well, so i do the best i can, and that seemed like enough. as i got a "thanks" and a peck on the cheek. which isnt TECHNICALLY cheating, because she and her man talked about all this beforehand, and hes cool just as long as it doesnt go anywhere. which basically leaves the door shut until something happens.
when will it be my turn, not just for that, but in general? when will I find someone for me?
so about 930 or so, i get kicked out by her mommy and chris gets another tongue lashing, yeehaw. i drive home, and its hard... hard because i know what happens in that house, and im powerless to do anything about it. that hurts me, because i dont like to see people hurt at all, outside or inside. i finally leave and turns out that lances fathers car light is on, i go in and let him know. and now, ive come full circle. so, i leave you with that, until tommorrow. same bat-time, same bat-channel.
~james
so today was a day off (YAY!). and so i decided to go to christines for a while, hung out there, got some free food, movie watching.. fun had by all. then from there i went out to amandas, and i caught the last half of "how to lose a guy in ten days" i mean, it wasnt a bad movie, but i wouldnt spend money to see it... which i didnt. and i was there for a couple hours, then i went back to christines, and from there we went to unos. turns out that someone we all knew works there and actually was our "server". guess "waitress" isnt used anymore. whatever. so we get a pizza, as thats nearly ALL they serve. we eat, joke, make lots of innuendo and make an ass out of ourselves. oh, and lance was there, prolly should have mentioned that. anyways, we leave and go to elyse's house to see if she was home... which she wasnt. which i suppose is a good thing, because there isnt any really good feelings between us, but lance wanted to see if she was home. but her dad was, and we joked around a bit, mainly because hes an old man :).
then we went to the commons, and we started out on the swings, then to the play structure, and then i went to the baby swing, seems more like a strung-up car seat. and during my little diversion, turns out christine managed to fall on her knee and bang it up some... POOR BABY! so i try and see what i can do with my limited knowledge of anatomy (well, APPLICABLE anatomy at the time) and i notice that there was a little brusing of the kneecap. so then we just have her sit down on a swing and relax for a while. we leave, and head for home.
get back to her house and lance goes his own way... thats fine, he was only a chaperone anyways (not that id do anything... conscience and all). i get her all comfy and stuff, and she receives the obligatory bitching at by her mother.. apperently, shes cheating on her bf with me... well! isnt that nice to tell me about. i mean, sure we cuddle n stuff, but nothing has happened yet. so that goes by and we go to the living room and sit on her couch, and just relax... did everything i could to make her comfortable. and then she breaks down and cries on my shoulder about everything. i mean, this is news to me as well, so i do the best i can, and that seemed like enough. as i got a "thanks" and a peck on the cheek. which isnt TECHNICALLY cheating, because she and her man talked about all this beforehand, and hes cool just as long as it doesnt go anywhere. which basically leaves the door shut until something happens.
when will it be my turn, not just for that, but in general? when will I find someone for me?
so about 930 or so, i get kicked out by her mommy and chris gets another tongue lashing, yeehaw. i drive home, and its hard... hard because i know what happens in that house, and im powerless to do anything about it. that hurts me, because i dont like to see people hurt at all, outside or inside. i finally leave and turns out that lances fathers car light is on, i go in and let him know. and now, ive come full circle. so, i leave you with that, until tommorrow. same bat-time, same bat-channel.
~james