I'm such a fucking sod...
Really, I am a sod.
I fear for my future.
Due to my poor scholastic performance and my habitual underachievement, I'll be cast in with the dregs of society. The trash, the jokes, the people you can laugh at so easily.
The base appeal. The ones they make commercials for. The ones they think are so stupid and have so little peace that they must buy and spend to attempt becoming "better". Fuck, they probably are.
My father says I'd "better learn about football", because if I don't go to college and get a nice job, I'll never be anything more than a fucking ape. The feeling's slightly claustrophobic.
I can't use my head without going to college... Without spending my youth like everyone else, I'll be nothing...
The truth is, I'm not spending my time as a young person like anyone else I know. I'm not trendhopping or "looking for love" or validation or anything... Just good times, fast times, and if I wind up dead it doesn't matter, because I have no idea why I'm here or where I'm going, anyway. Of course, searching for death is foolish. It's just not something to fear.
I fear for my future.
Due to my poor scholastic performance and my habitual underachievement, I'll be cast in with the dregs of society. The trash, the jokes, the people you can laugh at so easily.
The base appeal. The ones they make commercials for. The ones they think are so stupid and have so little peace that they must buy and spend to attempt becoming "better". Fuck, they probably are.
My father says I'd "better learn about football", because if I don't go to college and get a nice job, I'll never be anything more than a fucking ape. The feeling's slightly claustrophobic.
I can't use my head without going to college... Without spending my youth like everyone else, I'll be nothing...
The truth is, I'm not spending my time as a young person like anyone else I know. I'm not trendhopping or "looking for love" or validation or anything... Just good times, fast times, and if I wind up dead it doesn't matter, because I have no idea why I'm here or where I'm going, anyway. Of course, searching for death is foolish. It's just not something to fear.