silence
damn its surprising how from one day to the next peoples moods can change so quick! i was so happy and all up beat and shit yesterday and come today im all depressed and oh fuck the world and shit. i mean look at me im a fucking mess! why do i let one guy drive me so crazy? its gota be love cause if it isnt then hell, what is it? i cant really say im IN love with him i just really care for him and i guess yea that makes me love him. today we were talking for a while online and i realized i missed him alot and how much it really did hurt that he has a girlfriend. i wanted to cry cause all i was doing was spilling all my feelings i've kept inside to him. im glad he accepted them but all he could tell me was to move on? i made a promise to you, and ima keep it. its prolly like you said we were meant to be, just not right now, and i accept that. just know im always here and your forever in my heart!