dwight!!
in the last week i have suddenly acquired seasons 2 and 3 of the office. nothing further needs to be said on the matter, as my heart might explode with elation if i think about it any more tonight.
i spent my friday evening with friends i hadnt seen in varying "long time"s.. engaged in spectacular conversation with Heather and Chy, and vegged out with Heather and Johannes on Justin's bed for the longest time. Christian's up visiting, and a couple days ago he took me out to Not Your Average Joe's and then bought me season 2.. eeeeeeeee who knows why he did that but i am thankful :)
i was also pleasantly surprised at how much good-natured fun was had tonight. no biting or harshly-sarcastic comments or jokes made at my expense, which has been a sensitive issue at times in the past as they think i am tougher than i really am :)
i saw jimmy yesterday very briefly. he, haha, he was working. i got out of my own job at 5:30pm as i generally do on thursdays, but the MBTA was running suspiciously smoothly and i arrived at North Station at 5:47pm. i remembered that jimmy's train to haverhill departs at 5:52 so i went right on over and took a ride to the first stop on that line to hang out for a few minutes with him. lets just say that even in the "privacy" afforded by the section between cars where passengers are not, it's hard to talk on a train. those sections between cars are VERY loud, haha. plus it was all of 5 or 10 minutes- then i caught the orange line back to the North Station T station, and was at the commuter rail with time to spare before the 6:45, which is the train i take M-W anyhow. what an evening.
but you know, this is nothing really. it's nothing, it's not going anywhere or hasnt gone anywhere for about a week, it's just kind of stagnant for the time being. our texting has waned, and i think it's largely because i am lame and a confused human being and also because i have said in very plain terms that i hate texting- and i've said it several times. my phone bill for this month will actually be existent and it will be outrageous besides. i'm not worried over this guy, and am happy to know him even a bit. i'd love to get to know him more, but at the same time for reasons i will not go into in this public forum i just dont know about anything further. that remains to be seen! but fact: he has a great smile.. and a great nature about him as far as i've seen, and he makes /me/ smile.
and then, i look at these posts, and at the things i write in the journal Ally sent me, and i think to myself, What am i doing? it'll be a very special man indeed who halts my NZ plans. not to say it's impossible, but... i will be desiring to go until i do. until i go to new zealand. so i need to go. oh, and i have enough love in me to pour into another person, but if things dont go that way anytime soon, i'm at a really good point for that too :) i have so much time to spend with God right now, and i'm pretty thrilled with that reality. i love my Hillsong and i love speaking to God through song.
sigh. and because the MBTA/MBCR is 1/3 of my entire life, i must state that Jimmy's replacement on the 7:30am/6:45pm Newburyport/Rockport tr- who's name is Jamie- and who i also befriended a few weeks back- has taken a job on another line and isnt back to my line next week. he's sort of a substitute conductor, fills in where there's need. every time i make a friend they leave!! sad. jamie came through during one particularly clutch evening when there was a fire in swampscott and trains were delayed for hours... i finally got on a train pretty late, and he happened to be one of the conductors called in. mere days later on the morning route, the bridge between salem and bevs was stuck open and that was a huge ordeal, waiting out in the cold for over an hour (sub 10degree weather) and staying sane by texting with him occasionally. you know, it's just good to have someone else to interact with during any part of those near-3 hours of commuting i do every day. there's a woman on the 7:24am who's pretty talkative and who will probably be my next conductor buddy. it must be a phase, i dont know. me and the conductors. hey, this is my every day life. i find ways to get by :)
sooooo lateeeee
grocery shopping tomorrow :) yessssss
i spent my friday evening with friends i hadnt seen in varying "long time"s.. engaged in spectacular conversation with Heather and Chy, and vegged out with Heather and Johannes on Justin's bed for the longest time. Christian's up visiting, and a couple days ago he took me out to Not Your Average Joe's and then bought me season 2.. eeeeeeeee who knows why he did that but i am thankful :)
i was also pleasantly surprised at how much good-natured fun was had tonight. no biting or harshly-sarcastic comments or jokes made at my expense, which has been a sensitive issue at times in the past as they think i am tougher than i really am :)
i saw jimmy yesterday very briefly. he, haha, he was working. i got out of my own job at 5:30pm as i generally do on thursdays, but the MBTA was running suspiciously smoothly and i arrived at North Station at 5:47pm. i remembered that jimmy's train to haverhill departs at 5:52 so i went right on over and took a ride to the first stop on that line to hang out for a few minutes with him. lets just say that even in the "privacy" afforded by the section between cars where passengers are not, it's hard to talk on a train. those sections between cars are VERY loud, haha. plus it was all of 5 or 10 minutes- then i caught the orange line back to the North Station T station, and was at the commuter rail with time to spare before the 6:45, which is the train i take M-W anyhow. what an evening.
but you know, this is nothing really. it's nothing, it's not going anywhere or hasnt gone anywhere for about a week, it's just kind of stagnant for the time being. our texting has waned, and i think it's largely because i am lame and a confused human being and also because i have said in very plain terms that i hate texting- and i've said it several times. my phone bill for this month will actually be existent and it will be outrageous besides. i'm not worried over this guy, and am happy to know him even a bit. i'd love to get to know him more, but at the same time for reasons i will not go into in this public forum i just dont know about anything further. that remains to be seen! but fact: he has a great smile.. and a great nature about him as far as i've seen, and he makes /me/ smile.
and then, i look at these posts, and at the things i write in the journal Ally sent me, and i think to myself, What am i doing? it'll be a very special man indeed who halts my NZ plans. not to say it's impossible, but... i will be desiring to go until i do. until i go to new zealand. so i need to go. oh, and i have enough love in me to pour into another person, but if things dont go that way anytime soon, i'm at a really good point for that too :) i have so much time to spend with God right now, and i'm pretty thrilled with that reality. i love my Hillsong and i love speaking to God through song.
sigh. and because the MBTA/MBCR is 1/3 of my entire life, i must state that Jimmy's replacement on the 7:30am/6:45pm Newburyport/Rockport tr- who's name is Jamie- and who i also befriended a few weeks back- has taken a job on another line and isnt back to my line next week. he's sort of a substitute conductor, fills in where there's need. every time i make a friend they leave!! sad. jamie came through during one particularly clutch evening when there was a fire in swampscott and trains were delayed for hours... i finally got on a train pretty late, and he happened to be one of the conductors called in. mere days later on the morning route, the bridge between salem and bevs was stuck open and that was a huge ordeal, waiting out in the cold for over an hour (sub 10degree weather) and staying sane by texting with him occasionally. you know, it's just good to have someone else to interact with during any part of those near-3 hours of commuting i do every day. there's a woman on the 7:24am who's pretty talkative and who will probably be my next conductor buddy. it must be a phase, i dont know. me and the conductors. hey, this is my every day life. i find ways to get by :)
sooooo lateeeee
grocery shopping tomorrow :) yessssss