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everyone is all of a sudden either dating or getting engaged :oO
holy smokes. when it was kearah it felt a little surreal, someone i've known for about 8 years and love dearly moving into that next stage of life. but with this, i dont know... it hit me like a freight train and i cant wait to hear how it went this morning. she'll have said yes by now. he and i arent that close anymore but we have a good little history of friendship, and it's so close to home. all of these romantic happenings make me think a lot about the fact that life isnt a game! i cant explain it too much right now because i dont have the words, but my my-aged friends are starting to take huge life steps!! i suppose in my mind i've never been able to imagine having a career, living in my own place, getting married, etc as more than just a story, a this-is-what-everyone-else-does type thing. in america, /adults/ get married... i still feel like a kid still in a lot of ways. and so in relating with my friends i think of them in similar boats as i am in. BAM! we're growing up- we really are. i cant believe i used to think of getting married back when i was with eric. i was so young.
today i will start to get a tan.
holy smokes. when it was kearah it felt a little surreal, someone i've known for about 8 years and love dearly moving into that next stage of life. but with this, i dont know... it hit me like a freight train and i cant wait to hear how it went this morning. she'll have said yes by now. he and i arent that close anymore but we have a good little history of friendship, and it's so close to home. all of these romantic happenings make me think a lot about the fact that life isnt a game! i cant explain it too much right now because i dont have the words, but my my-aged friends are starting to take huge life steps!! i suppose in my mind i've never been able to imagine having a career, living in my own place, getting married, etc as more than just a story, a this-is-what-everyone-else-does type thing. in america, /adults/ get married... i still feel like a kid still in a lot of ways. and so in relating with my friends i think of them in similar boats as i am in. BAM! we're growing up- we really are. i cant believe i used to think of getting married back when i was with eric. i was so young.
today i will start to get a tan.