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I was watching "18 Kids and Counting" today, and it just made me really think about a lot of things....mostly wondering how people can remain blindly optimistic in the face of challenges? how is it that some people can just go through their day with a smile on their face and feel genuinely happy to serve other people? i've seen it more often in christians than in any other group...and i consider myself a christian, so why aren't i like that? maybe i just haven't completely given myself to god yet in a way that those people have. when i was a teenager, i was that "blindly optimistic" person...i just had so much faith and cared for god so deeply and really felt his love. but that was before life gave me challenges. man, i was so optimistic. and now i'm just...stuck.
i've been following a few people on twitter (yes, i'm on twitter, i'm a twit lol), and one of the people i've been following is demi lovato. she's a teenager, she's young, but i LOVE her music, even though she's been pulled onto the disney train. but her tweets are just so optimistic, it reminds me of when i was a teenager. and it makes me hurt. and i can't help but almost wish bad things on her so that she will one day feel how i feel right now. i think things like, "wait, demi, just wait. wait for another 5 years or so when you don't look so young and can't squeeze into your prefabricated disney roles. wait until the disney hype dies down, which one day it will, and then, THEN you will feel as nasty and wizened as i do. and your faith won't be so strong."
i mean, is this a test? i think it is. but i want it to be over. i want it to be over so badly.
i know we're supposed to rejoice in all things. how do you do that?
i've been following a few people on twitter (yes, i'm on twitter, i'm a twit lol), and one of the people i've been following is demi lovato. she's a teenager, she's young, but i LOVE her music, even though she's been pulled onto the disney train. but her tweets are just so optimistic, it reminds me of when i was a teenager. and it makes me hurt. and i can't help but almost wish bad things on her so that she will one day feel how i feel right now. i think things like, "wait, demi, just wait. wait for another 5 years or so when you don't look so young and can't squeeze into your prefabricated disney roles. wait until the disney hype dies down, which one day it will, and then, THEN you will feel as nasty and wizened as i do. and your faith won't be so strong."
i mean, is this a test? i think it is. but i want it to be over. i want it to be over so badly.
i know we're supposed to rejoice in all things. how do you do that?