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please allow my inner 12-year-old to die....
stacy decided not to go see hanson because it was too expensive and i couldn't guarantee good seats even with buying them presale, because the show is all general admission. and i can't bring myself to drag abbie with me, because i know she doesn't want to go.
today in the mail i received my letter from the msu vet school admissions....and i was denied. that was my dream, and i wanted to experience it with all of my friends, all of the people who have whined with me about difficult classes, and helped push me and drive me over the past 4 years. i wanted nothing more than to go on to vet school at michigan state with all of them. and now, the thought of that not happening is completely frightening to me.
i now have my last hope in the university of wisconsin-madison vet school, which i should be hearing from in the next few days. but it's even harder to get into out-of-state schools than in-state, and if by some miracle i get accepted, i am terrified of going out to wisconsin completely alone.
my head is spinning with thoughts of what i would do in the next year if i don't get into wisconsin and have to apply again next year...and then what if i don't get in next year either? do i reapply a 3rd time? do i move on with my life? what would i do if i wasn't a vet? i have no clue. so for the moment i am drowning my sorrows in diet coke, ferrero rochers, and watching abbie dance about the apartment like a fairy on acid. bless her, she makes me happy in ways she doesn't realize because i can't find the right words to tell her.
waiting to hear from wisconsin, i am very much feeling like the opening line of 'love song' by sara bareilles (my current favorite jam) - "head under water, and you tell me to breathe easy for a while".
stacy decided not to go see hanson because it was too expensive and i couldn't guarantee good seats even with buying them presale, because the show is all general admission. and i can't bring myself to drag abbie with me, because i know she doesn't want to go.
today in the mail i received my letter from the msu vet school admissions....and i was denied. that was my dream, and i wanted to experience it with all of my friends, all of the people who have whined with me about difficult classes, and helped push me and drive me over the past 4 years. i wanted nothing more than to go on to vet school at michigan state with all of them. and now, the thought of that not happening is completely frightening to me.
i now have my last hope in the university of wisconsin-madison vet school, which i should be hearing from in the next few days. but it's even harder to get into out-of-state schools than in-state, and if by some miracle i get accepted, i am terrified of going out to wisconsin completely alone.
my head is spinning with thoughts of what i would do in the next year if i don't get into wisconsin and have to apply again next year...and then what if i don't get in next year either? do i reapply a 3rd time? do i move on with my life? what would i do if i wasn't a vet? i have no clue. so for the moment i am drowning my sorrows in diet coke, ferrero rochers, and watching abbie dance about the apartment like a fairy on acid. bless her, she makes me happy in ways she doesn't realize because i can't find the right words to tell her.
waiting to hear from wisconsin, i am very much feeling like the opening line of 'love song' by sara bareilles (my current favorite jam) - "head under water, and you tell me to breathe easy for a while".