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I almost cried today knowing that i will probably have to drop orchestra next semester. :( that really makes me depressed!
I Have this happiness inside that isn't in full bloom yet. I feel peaceful at different times of the day, just out of the blue. And i'll just smile to myself and think, "everything will be okay." I know things won't stay over emotional or depressing or confusing. it will get better. I can't explain it...I just feel like my life is starting to make sense somehow. Will this dream of mine come true? Am i seeing a glance of what is to come? Could i really be that happy in my future? I pray that i will be. I keep thinking about this dream i have and think it would be too good to be true. Maybe it is, but that's what makes me smile. For if this comes into my life my heart would be overjoyed. I sort of feel like my past is a blurr and i am focusing on what lies ahead. I want to move forward in life and i want to be tranquil and joyful. I had a dream last night that reflected my thoughts. I don't know what dreams mean, or what their purpose is, but it was vivid. Dreams could just be a random collection of thoughts that are running in your head clashing together in your subconciousness and your brain is trying to make sense of it all. I think my dream was telling me to not sit back and wait for life to happen, but to be life. I think i have a habit of just sitting around and waiting for things to happen and letting opportunities pass me by. I think my dream was trying to tell me to be more spontaneous and not let opportunities pass me by, but take life by the reigns and ride it to the full. We shall see where that takes me. I may chicken out every now and then, but i will try to not let life down.
What will happen? I know not, but i shall find out eventually. ;)
I Have this happiness inside that isn't in full bloom yet. I feel peaceful at different times of the day, just out of the blue. And i'll just smile to myself and think, "everything will be okay." I know things won't stay over emotional or depressing or confusing. it will get better. I can't explain it...I just feel like my life is starting to make sense somehow. Will this dream of mine come true? Am i seeing a glance of what is to come? Could i really be that happy in my future? I pray that i will be. I keep thinking about this dream i have and think it would be too good to be true. Maybe it is, but that's what makes me smile. For if this comes into my life my heart would be overjoyed. I sort of feel like my past is a blurr and i am focusing on what lies ahead. I want to move forward in life and i want to be tranquil and joyful. I had a dream last night that reflected my thoughts. I don't know what dreams mean, or what their purpose is, but it was vivid. Dreams could just be a random collection of thoughts that are running in your head clashing together in your subconciousness and your brain is trying to make sense of it all. I think my dream was telling me to not sit back and wait for life to happen, but to be life. I think i have a habit of just sitting around and waiting for things to happen and letting opportunities pass me by. I think my dream was trying to tell me to be more spontaneous and not let opportunities pass me by, but take life by the reigns and ride it to the full. We shall see where that takes me. I may chicken out every now and then, but i will try to not let life down.
What will happen? I know not, but i shall find out eventually. ;)