kim smells good
i need to find out what kind of shampoo she uses.. it might be her hair.. it might be something else.. i can't tell. anyway i probably should'nt be writing this because everything i write just makes me sound stupid.. if i stay quiet people will think i'm smart.. but here is my stupidity for anyone to see... i'm going to become an entertainer and be a clown for everybody... it's what i was made to do. i wear my inside out and my outside in.. if i don't have a girlfriend i'm gonna go bananas though. if i don't move out of eugene i might go bananas too.. this is a very alienating place to grow up.. everyone has there own little clique.. people aren't as friendly as they are in other cities.. it's too much of a drug town.. i'm not anti drug but i'm anti drug philosophy.. the culture at the university seems to be people blowing their pot smoke induced ideas on you.. i get those too sometimes but i try to keep them to myself.. since i realized that drugs do not cause revelations they lower your revelation threshhold so that everything is a revelation. i so love the men and women of action and i so long to become one.. gone are the days of philosophizing on my belly button lint. still.. i have never meshed well with institutions of any kind.. i don't know if i can ever work for a corporation long term. well i seem to have lost my thread.. now i want a real revelation... wait there it is.. i am jesus christ! hmm that doesn't change anything.