I feel like hanging down with my head all the time. But I will get used to it. The warmth here is overwhelming when you come right out of the Scandinavian winter but the
lodge is nicely air conditioned. Luckily I don`t have to pay for it, hah!
Basically I`m here coz life sucks and is an endless row of dissappointment. Or probably coz I`m insane.
What is all this so-called freedom in life for when it doesn`t make you happy?
You can chose who you wanna be with, live with, marry, whatever. And what if the other person doesn`t feel the same way for you you feel for them? Coz that`s the way it usually is. So why don`t we have those arranged marriages anymore where it is in your power to become happy? You get to know the other person, learn more about yourself, work on the relationship, yourself and karma. Stay together in good and bad times, no matter what, still respecting the promise you made.
I don`t want to hear the realistic arguments that not everyone got happy in an arranged marriage. I wanna think people where happy. I wanna imagine life beautiful and full of flowers and butterflies and rainbows. I want life to be good and the hurt to stop. I want to believe in happiness.
And I don`t want to be alone anymore.
PS: I`m looking for a new background, anyone creative?