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[miekenpetra]

i feel like shit.
i feel like i just got hit by a train.
i cant do anything but sit here in complete misery over what you did to me.
i want to go back to bed, but i cant sleep.
i want to take a shower, but i dont care about being clean.
i want to eat, but i cant digest anything.
i cant decide whether i want to be alone, or if i should go somewhere to take my mind off things.
i dont know what to do with myself.

i fell way too hard for you.
and i hate you for that.
and for what you did to me.
i just wish you would disappear.
i wish i never knew your name.

(its for the best, mieken. its for the best.)
but it hurts.
it hurts so bad.