fuck.
i feel so completely inadequate.
i feel so wrong.
i dont know what to do or what to say or who to do it with or say it to.
im tired of this. i hate it. why do you have to go and complicate things all the time? why cant you just leave me alone? for a tiny moment you make me feel like i dont want you to ever leave my side, and then you leave and i never want to see you again. i cant keep doing this. dont you understand? i cant keep telling everyone different things. i cant keep trying to make everyone happy by telling them different sides of the story. i want one side of the story and i want it to stay that way for everyone and if you dont like it, fuck off.
I CANT KEEP DOING THIS. DONT YOU UNDERSTAND? LEAVE ME ALONE.
at first i was dead set on what i wanted. then you came in and fucked with my head and got me all confused. stop it. STOP FUCKING WITH ME. all you do is make everything complicated. im done with complications. im done with choosing. im done with changing. LEAVE ME THE WAY I AM. LEAVE ME ALONE.
im sorry to everyone that i told different things. the truth is that i dont know which side of the story is the right one. im sorry for giving anyone false hopes, which ive been doing a lot within the past few months. im making my decision and im sticking with it. and im going to tell everyone one thing. one story. im sorry if this hurts anyone. but im being ripped to pieces inside, and i cant take it anymore.
i feel so wrong.
i dont know what to do or what to say or who to do it with or say it to.
im tired of this. i hate it. why do you have to go and complicate things all the time? why cant you just leave me alone? for a tiny moment you make me feel like i dont want you to ever leave my side, and then you leave and i never want to see you again. i cant keep doing this. dont you understand? i cant keep telling everyone different things. i cant keep trying to make everyone happy by telling them different sides of the story. i want one side of the story and i want it to stay that way for everyone and if you dont like it, fuck off.
I CANT KEEP DOING THIS. DONT YOU UNDERSTAND? LEAVE ME ALONE.
at first i was dead set on what i wanted. then you came in and fucked with my head and got me all confused. stop it. STOP FUCKING WITH ME. all you do is make everything complicated. im done with complications. im done with choosing. im done with changing. LEAVE ME THE WAY I AM. LEAVE ME ALONE.
im sorry to everyone that i told different things. the truth is that i dont know which side of the story is the right one. im sorry for giving anyone false hopes, which ive been doing a lot within the past few months. im making my decision and im sticking with it. and im going to tell everyone one thing. one story. im sorry if this hurts anyone. but im being ripped to pieces inside, and i cant take it anymore.