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[midway95]

Oh man, the concert was great. It was like being at a giant party with all my friends. I even got to see tony!I completely miss all that music and all my old friends. It was great being there again, it was like being at home. Now that I'm back at the apartment, I dont feel right, like this is not where im supposed to be, and its completely the truth. I shouldnt be here, i should be making music. Im seriously facing the facts and I dont know if I want to grow up, I dont know if i want to take responsibiltys. I wanna live, be young, and do what i have fun doing. I dont really like being here and coming off my high. I think I just feel that the only time i felt different and unique, was when I was playing music. And i feel a release when I play. I came home and sat with my acoustic and had fun. And i felt sick to my stomach when i thought, i may never do this again. But then i though, whats stopping me. I need to get on the right track and start having fun again. I dont really know if anyone else has something like i had, and that i want back. I would hope someone else had these feelings though. I dont know if people consider what i feel just me living in the past or what, i dont think it is, cause im not trying to relive anything, just trying to have fun again. The way I see it is god did not put us on earth to suffer or to beg for our souls, he put us here to live life and make everyday the best possible day we can have. And i need to start making everyday count again.

FUCK ARGUING OVER POLITICS AND GOVERMENT!
FUCK THINGS CONSIDERED "NORMAL"!
FUCK BEGGING FOR PITY ON MY SOUL!
FUCK ANYONE TRYING TO PUSH ME DOWN!
FUCK ALL YOU FAKES!
FUCK RESPONSIBILITY!
FUCK GROWING UP!
ILL ACT MY I.Q. AND NOT MAY AGE ANYTIME OF THE WEEK!
ILL BE A FUCKING LOSER, BUT ILL BE HAPPY!
IF YOU HATE ME, KISS MY ASS!
I LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME AND NOONE ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!