Realizations

[midsummersglow]

I've just been noticing lately just how fucked up the world is. I mean, I always knew that there was this whole big world out there that I have always just been sheltered from...and I've always known that I am very naive about a lot of things...But, I guess it's just coming here and seeing how crazy people are and how bad or well off certain people are...I don't know...It just really puts things into perspective. I mean, the other day, I'm driving down Hollywood Blvd. and I look up and see this huge ass bill board for that new 50 cent movie entitled "Get Rich or Die Trying"...okay, don't even get me started on the fact that 50 cent is now "acting." But, I mean, what I'm getting at is the title. I just think it's so sad that there are actually people in the world who really do live only for money. I mean, what the fuck kind of life is that? I can't even imagine living only to make money - and lots of it and to want that so much, to be willing to die in the process. That is just crazy to me. I can't even comprehend that. I just think it's really sad that people live like that. I mean, what do you have left to live for once you've become rich? I mean, money doesn't fill that empty spot inside of you...maybe that's why we have so many wars and suicides and so much shit going on in the world. I just wish it were easier for people to see worth and value in their lives and actually do something with their lives. I mean, I believe that everyone has the potential to do amazing things with their lives. That's all I want for my life...I mean, if I die knowing that I've touched someone's life in a positive way...ya know, that it's made some kind of difference...well, then my life was worth it. I just feel like it's a waste of life and space if you're just living for stupid things like money...or any 'worldly' thing..like sex, drugs, alcohol...or whatever. I mean, I'm not saying you shouldn't do that stuff at all...I mean, do whatever you want...I'm just saying, I wish that all people would just strive to do one good thing in their lives...touch one other persons life...in some kind of good life changing way...I don't know. I'm gonna stop rambling about this now and go take a nap...

Love you guys...I'll be home in a month.