'Time can't erase a feeling this strong"
Well this will be my last journal entry from my little room in my cozy house in the small town of Endicott, NY. Today was the first day that I started to really genuinely feel the reality of leaving for Orlando, FL. It's something that has been planned, almost over-planned, but now it's really going down. I have four days left in the lifestyle that has become devastatingly comfortable. I can honestly say that I am ready to move one to bigger and better things while recognizing the gifts and blessings here at home. I am going to really miss many people up here in New York, but I'm prepared to go forward in this opportunity and make the most of it all. I feel that having some familiar faces in Florida will be awesome especially if things get rocky. I'm going to miss my animal like woah. Charlie's my little guy and he's been kicking around this joint since I was 9 years old. I cannot comprehend how time has flown by. Two nights ago I watched the final seasons of Sex and the City with Anthony, Alyse, Jamie, and Holland. I felt it was the fitting way to say goodbye to all of those guys. At one single moment that night I realized Alyse was crying about the episodes while Jamie smoked a cigarette and Anthony added his two cents about Samantha's latest wig. These are the comforting moments I will really miss in the weeks and months ahead.
I guess on another front I see myself reverting back to a completely drug-free attitude. Weed was something that was there from time to time and I would smoke if it was there to basically experiment. I am seeing way too many of my friends' lives erode away and their personalities are shifting because of weed. No I will not blow something like smoking marijuana out of proportion but will indeed highlight the fact that there are distinct things I see in people around me that are worrisome and this is why I've chosen to stay away from smoking anything. In Florida I will never put myself in a situation that keeps me in every night and closed off from social situations, but on the same token I would never endangner my well-being or the well-being of others. I care way too much about my family and my friend to squander my life away with drugs or alcohol. I believe in the good nature in every person and I hope that I will connect with people at Disney and ultimately connect with people in my life that know the value life.
Things are packed and ready to go. I have the "daily-use" stuff that i will obviously get together the night before but other than that I could leave today and be ready. I hope to see Linz to firm up some stuff surrounding our trip down. That drive and east coast adventure is going to be half of our fun! I am really getting excited for it all. My car came back today from the body shop after a little paint-work and touch ups and it looks brand new. I love my Solara so much and I know I can rely on it and that's comforting for me, AHS, and deenie. Things in these past few days are getting surreal. I want more time, but I really don't know what to thing because all of this is new to me. I guess the only way to do it right is go head first into this new chapter of my life. My Aunt Tracie gave me a card today and it meant so much. Most of the time the message is the most worthless part of the card and the it's all about the money. Granted, in this case, both were awesome but the the validation in the words of the card sum up 19 years of hard work and 19 years of not compromising to fit someone else's mold. I will always be that dorky and slightly out of place kid that chewed on the top of his shirts in first grade no matter where I go. I just hope to learn something with every new experience and stick to my word and my morals at all costs. Here is what the card said:
::COVER::
I believe in you-
in the things that are important to you
and in the way you choose to live your life...
I believe that you can accomplish
anything you set out to do,
that you have many talents
and the wisdom to use them well..
I believe that you have what it takes
to overcome obstacles
and to grow from every experience
life brings your way...
I believe in your courage,
your compassion
your integrity,
and your strength.
I believe
in your goodness...
::INSIDE::
I believe in you.
-Bobbie Burrow
Thank you so much Aunt Tracie, and I hope to update very soon from the Sunshine state. Everyone here in ENY, hold it down for me and I'll see you all in May! Goodnight
I guess on another front I see myself reverting back to a completely drug-free attitude. Weed was something that was there from time to time and I would smoke if it was there to basically experiment. I am seeing way too many of my friends' lives erode away and their personalities are shifting because of weed. No I will not blow something like smoking marijuana out of proportion but will indeed highlight the fact that there are distinct things I see in people around me that are worrisome and this is why I've chosen to stay away from smoking anything. In Florida I will never put myself in a situation that keeps me in every night and closed off from social situations, but on the same token I would never endangner my well-being or the well-being of others. I care way too much about my family and my friend to squander my life away with drugs or alcohol. I believe in the good nature in every person and I hope that I will connect with people at Disney and ultimately connect with people in my life that know the value life.
Things are packed and ready to go. I have the "daily-use" stuff that i will obviously get together the night before but other than that I could leave today and be ready. I hope to see Linz to firm up some stuff surrounding our trip down. That drive and east coast adventure is going to be half of our fun! I am really getting excited for it all. My car came back today from the body shop after a little paint-work and touch ups and it looks brand new. I love my Solara so much and I know I can rely on it and that's comforting for me, AHS, and deenie. Things in these past few days are getting surreal. I want more time, but I really don't know what to thing because all of this is new to me. I guess the only way to do it right is go head first into this new chapter of my life. My Aunt Tracie gave me a card today and it meant so much. Most of the time the message is the most worthless part of the card and the it's all about the money. Granted, in this case, both were awesome but the the validation in the words of the card sum up 19 years of hard work and 19 years of not compromising to fit someone else's mold. I will always be that dorky and slightly out of place kid that chewed on the top of his shirts in first grade no matter where I go. I just hope to learn something with every new experience and stick to my word and my morals at all costs. Here is what the card said:
::COVER::
I believe in you-
in the things that are important to you
and in the way you choose to live your life...
I believe that you can accomplish
anything you set out to do,
that you have many talents
and the wisdom to use them well..
I believe that you have what it takes
to overcome obstacles
and to grow from every experience
life brings your way...
I believe in your courage,
your compassion
your integrity,
and your strength.
I believe
in your goodness...
::INSIDE::
I believe in you.
-Bobbie Burrow
Thank you so much Aunt Tracie, and I hope to update very soon from the Sunshine state. Everyone here in ENY, hold it down for me and I'll see you all in May! Goodnight