These are the days, where all that I can is dream
There's so much shit to say. I mean I don't even know if it matters anymore. I guess where I'm at right now is a nice place for myself. I can't complain about my situation, in the same breath I can't rave about it either. I find myself easily drifting out of friendships due to the sole fact that neither party makes the effort. I saddens me because I know this could have been hands down the best summer of my life, but I'm over-working myself and what do I have to show for it? I guess that things could be worse. Things could always be worse. But tonight I find myself asking why I let people slip so far away. I am a person that thrives on interaction but finding lasting friendships for me has always been hard. I need to fist come to terms with the fact that people I was friends with 2 months ago I will never see again in my life. Also I need to realize that people I meet in the coming weeks will shape the rest of my life. I need to accept change and let things go easier but it's hard. The summer is already winding down and I don't remember it starting. I love my friends, but I also realize they have lives too. I wish the big picture would set in for everyone and people would realize that in less than three weeks relationships years in the making will be uprooted and our lives will take the next twist. I don't really know what else there is to say. I could bore everyone with superficial shit but that gets old. I mean I even consider Live Journal a person in our group of friends. It's always been here through the good and the bad. It's been a good listener when we've all had problems and it has kept us together even if it means keeping someone 1000 miles away in touch. Justin and Christina was awesome, my new laptop is cool, my schedule for Binghamton is all right, I might take the job as Head Guard at Court Jester, Highland lifeguarding is ok, Oklahoma will be fun, and I mean that's all for now I guess. Keep in touch and I'll try to as well. Sometimes it's the people who are the closest that drift away the furthest because before you know it hours turn into days, days into weeks, and weeks into months. Here's to the rest of the summer being filled with days of work and nights of fun. We are young only once.