Dummy
It's pretty cold where I am now. Seth went off to work about an hour ago. It really sucks having him on third shift because it means I have to sleep alone. Strange how my ex and I didn't even sleep in the same bed after a certain point, but now lying in bed by myself makes me feel empty.
I've gotten a lot of good news lately. One thing I have going for me is this internship I may be getting for the spring semester. It would have been a sure thing, but now I have to say I "may" be getting it because I did something rather stupid this week and last week that may jeopardize it. And I'd been good for so long. Ages, in fact. Not that I won't do anything it takes to get out of this jam, up to and including seduction, but still.
Somehow I manage to almost screw myself out of every good thing that ever happens to me. It's not something I consciously try to do, either. I'm not a reckless person, but no matter how retarded I'm behaving, I'm always able to tell myself that things will work out in the end. And they usually do, scarily enough. It makes me think I should start doing all sorts of illegal shit just to test myself.
However, that'll have to wait until after this present crisis.
I've gotten a lot of good news lately. One thing I have going for me is this internship I may be getting for the spring semester. It would have been a sure thing, but now I have to say I "may" be getting it because I did something rather stupid this week and last week that may jeopardize it. And I'd been good for so long. Ages, in fact. Not that I won't do anything it takes to get out of this jam, up to and including seduction, but still.
Somehow I manage to almost screw myself out of every good thing that ever happens to me. It's not something I consciously try to do, either. I'm not a reckless person, but no matter how retarded I'm behaving, I'm always able to tell myself that things will work out in the end. And they usually do, scarily enough. It makes me think I should start doing all sorts of illegal shit just to test myself.
However, that'll have to wait until after this present crisis.