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no one writes in there journal ne more. wtf is up with that? im sure your doing something coool. tell us about it. im not doing nething cool. but im writting. ive watched more movies in the last 3 days then i have in the last 3 months. thats all there is to do. yeah and if you wanna see phantom of the opra forget about it it was a stupid musical. fuck musicals. who actually walks around singing something you could just say? noone.
well i dont hang out with chelle ne more. it sux but oh well. shes always with her bf or at work. she dont call me. theres no point in calling her. heather likes to ditch me. so i guess were not talkin or soemthing. as if theres a reason for her to be mad at me.i should be mad at her but i dont even care im used to this shit. its sad when you become used to things that hurt. you know it should hurt or you should be upset about it but you just dont care anymore cuz it happens all the time. i guess i was rong about what i wrote before. us 3 we are not an unstoppable force. were not gona be friends forever. and your not coming first ne more. i guess first has to be me cuz someone has to care about me. it might as well be myself. i have to get myself throu this life. no one is going to help me or be there for me. im not mad at my friends its just different now. and i dont not wanna be friends i just want you to show me you actually care. if you do. im so sick of sittin at home everynight with nothing to do and no one to talk to. even the other ppl i used to hang out with dont care. i used to hang out with tony and jeff all the time but i guess there to busy with themselves as well. im getting better at driving. ima take my test soon. then i can drive. ill go look for a job myself. then ill save up. then ill get my own place. things will get better.i hope.
well i dont hang out with chelle ne more. it sux but oh well. shes always with her bf or at work. she dont call me. theres no point in calling her. heather likes to ditch me. so i guess were not talkin or soemthing. as if theres a reason for her to be mad at me.i should be mad at her but i dont even care im used to this shit. its sad when you become used to things that hurt. you know it should hurt or you should be upset about it but you just dont care anymore cuz it happens all the time. i guess i was rong about what i wrote before. us 3 we are not an unstoppable force. were not gona be friends forever. and your not coming first ne more. i guess first has to be me cuz someone has to care about me. it might as well be myself. i have to get myself throu this life. no one is going to help me or be there for me. im not mad at my friends its just different now. and i dont not wanna be friends i just want you to show me you actually care. if you do. im so sick of sittin at home everynight with nothing to do and no one to talk to. even the other ppl i used to hang out with dont care. i used to hang out with tony and jeff all the time but i guess there to busy with themselves as well. im getting better at driving. ima take my test soon. then i can drive. ill go look for a job myself. then ill save up. then ill get my own place. things will get better.i hope.