Looking For A Reason
This is taken from one of my personal journals...
"Talking to Jonathan Sunday night and other events, particularly today, has made me realize that I don't know what my purpose in life is. I know it's there, it's just not clear at the moment.
"It makes me wonder if I'm supposed to minister somehow. Probably my writing. The comedian at convocation today spoke about how she discovered how to minister through her acting skills. I automatically thought about the play I want to write about finding God, then losing Him. Glenda talked about using Christ to forgive (name left out), then as soon as I walked out the door, I ran into Ryan from New Testament. He began talking about God. I'm not sure what he said, but I remember His name.
"Am I to minister through my writing? As a band director?
"Is there another purpose for me?"
--October 26, 2005
That Friday, I handed an older gentlemen his order at work and wished him a good evening. He then told me that I had a wonderful soul. "God bless you."
It was one of those moments that I haven't been able to shake.
Is God calling me to do something?
If so, why me?
I've never been very religious. I still have some trouble accepting Christianity.
But all these signs have been pointing that way for a while.
If it is to be, why am I avoiding it?
Why is it so hard for me to accept?
"Talking to Jonathan Sunday night and other events, particularly today, has made me realize that I don't know what my purpose in life is. I know it's there, it's just not clear at the moment.
"It makes me wonder if I'm supposed to minister somehow. Probably my writing. The comedian at convocation today spoke about how she discovered how to minister through her acting skills. I automatically thought about the play I want to write about finding God, then losing Him. Glenda talked about using Christ to forgive (name left out), then as soon as I walked out the door, I ran into Ryan from New Testament. He began talking about God. I'm not sure what he said, but I remember His name.
"Am I to minister through my writing? As a band director?
"Is there another purpose for me?"
--October 26, 2005
That Friday, I handed an older gentlemen his order at work and wished him a good evening. He then told me that I had a wonderful soul. "God bless you."
It was one of those moments that I haven't been able to shake.
Is God calling me to do something?
If so, why me?
I've never been very religious. I still have some trouble accepting Christianity.
But all these signs have been pointing that way for a while.
If it is to be, why am I avoiding it?
Why is it so hard for me to accept?