carefree no more.
i love this picture
cos it looks like i was having a lot of fun.
at least i didnt have to worry that
i need to choose the 206 company asap.
i need to register for the 311 stimulation game.
i need not prepare for tmr's sucky gross what audit debate.
and who noes what project i got for the toughest module in ntu acc, AA 306- RISK REPORTING & ANALYSIS.
i was blogsurfing yest and
i actually chanced upon this nbs senior's blog
she actually left this big 4 firm (after working for 1 mth there?!) and gonna pursue teaching
cos she dont foresee herself working in the corporate world.
she only foresee raf place as the place to transit between trains.
i think she must have thought thru it thoroughly and mustered enuff courage to make tt bold decision.
i dont think i got that amt of courage.
i am just one of those going-to-graduate nbs ppl,
hoping to get into one of the big 4s and just bury myself in work till 2am everyday.
and end up as a no-life working adult.
who goes to work in the day and when she ends work,
all she sees is darkness. nightfall.
maybe can even hear the birds come home (ring a bell, songjh?)
i seriously dont have e motivation to get started on my tutorials
but i noe i gnna die if i dont prepare
if the teacher cold calls and i noe nothing. DIE.
i noe this is my last semester and i got a damn xiong timetable.
i noe this is my last shot at studies.
and yet my gear is STILL not activated.
i still want to go out everyday and enjoy life.
stay as far away from my books as possible.
if time could revert.
i wish i was still at zhongtanlu, 99 nong, 5 hao, 2705 shi,
in my bedroom, lying on my mattress,
listening to the same old music playing from my ibm t43 which accompanied me for the 5 mths.
with the heater on.
calling wai mai.
taking line 3 and 4.
cheap food everywhere.
sleeping late.
no constant naggings from my mom that i am FAT. even till now she is still ranting abt it. NONSTOP.
it's the freedom lost
and the looming semester stress
tt is getting to me now.......