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I'm exploding. This is the second day in a row that I have sequestered myself in my room to be alone and cry to music. I mean right now, I am shaking. I cant take it anymore. Why is everything like this? I just want to be close. I don't want to hurt anyone. And I don't want to make people feel bad or like jerks. I know you love me and I, you. But I want us to be closer. I've broken enough hearts in my days, and this is why I am really not putting much detail in here. And I am sorry, if you are reading this. I'm sorry for hurting you in the past. And I continue hurting. I hate making people feel bad. I hate it. I want to be there for you and vice versa. I want us to be perfect, I guess. I always have such high hopes. And they get let down again.
p.s. that drumset that ive wanted for over 10 years, im NOT getting.
p.s. that drumset that ive wanted for over 10 years, im NOT getting.