The Fear You Won't Fall... SOMEWHERE NORMAL LIKE A SIDEWALK!
Well this is my first post to the topics you suggested. I shall take on Jen's question about what I fear.
What do I fear? Well I fear very specific things.
1. I am scared to death by spiders; I'll scream like a woman if I see one.
2. I have a slight fear of heights... not enough to keep me from sky diving though.
3. I fear not becoming the person I need to become or the person I want to become.
4. I'm afraid I'll turn out to be like my father.
5. I'm afraid of doing something I'll regret and never being able to take it back or have a way to make up for it.
6. I have an odd fear of one day looking up at the sky and seeing a giant eyeball looking down on me. (Weird, I know... I'll explain later)
Though, I find fear itself irrational. When you think about it all as a bigger picture, fear doesn't make sense. You're going to die sooner or later... why waste time cowering in fear? I'm not saying you shouldn't fear, I'm saying you shouldn't let it take over your life. I've tried to make it a habit to expect the unexpected and then do the unexpected. I'm bad at keeping habits though. In my life you always kind of have to expect the unexpected anyways or else you'd be half scared to death every 10 seconds. Doing the unexpected is what I forget to do. I fear a lot less than I thought I would though.
Okay so about the eyeball in the sky... I always seem to think really big and this where this fear comes from. One day I came to realize that the universe was so big that anything could live out there. I know that this goes against the laws of physics but who is to say that our laws apply to everything, everyone and everywhere in the universe? So by my theory of relative reality there's a chance that there is a gigantic monster with tentacles, a skin color that has never before seen in our planet, scary eyeballs, "swimming" out in space. Imagine some weird creature floating out in space going planet to planet devouring them. So one day, if ever, this creature swims our direction and is right over our home planet, peering down at us who would be the size of termites (or even something of the molecular size) compared to that thing. I would freak out if a giant squishy eyeball (if it even has eyeballs) was moving around in the sky looking down at me. Irrational? Possibly. Weird? Very. Possible? I don't think it matters. Considering that if it does happen, we would all die a few seconds later and I wouldn't even get the chance to say, "I told you so!". Want me to trip you out a little? k. What if we were already gobbled up by this giant creature? Except he swallowed a whole bunch of galaxies and because of its size it takes a while to be digested. Right now we're probably falling down it's throat along with a bunch of other places in what we call our universe... but again- because of his size it would take a couple of hundred (thousand?) years for us to fall all the way to where his digestive juices lie. Wouldn't that be fun? For it to suddenly start raining acid from the outside of the universe. So if we were really inside the stomach of this monstrous thing... then what was the real universe like outside of the monster? Maybe the monster is floating inside another planet of another universe that was eaten by an even more gigantonormous monster. Why couldn't we just all have fallen down something normal like... off a couch or on a sidewalk. Not down the throat of a giant weird freakish monster!
It doesn't matter anyways because if we were, we can't prove it.
In the end, fear is irrational. No matter in what form. Fear is relative. Fear is there if you let it be there. If I wanted to, I could walk up to a spider and say, "Hey there ugly thing, I am not afraid of you! So skedaddle away and never come back, for I am mighty and I can squish you with my giant feet of DOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!"
I just choose not to =P
and it probably wouldn't listen anyways, leaving me to an empty threat >_>
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So now I will wait for someone to give me another topic to write about. Just leave a comment with your thoughts on this post and topic.
Also, after each post of these I'm going to leave you all with a question related to the topic that I want you to answer in your comment. Just for fun!
Question: Do you have an irrational fear? (If you do please specify)