all i want is something more
i don't know what to say. i feel like the blind melon song, the one that everyone knows about and has become some cliché anthem for the self-destructive internet chatboard youth. but i like it, in a weird ambivalence... it's a mad rage of something more universal than pain. something more universal than happiness. it's just a song about rain. and about plain. and about boredom. and it's a song that i can weep to and a song that i can listen to when i'm very excited. it's illusive that way. it fits. it moves. it's beautiful.
i've got a new set list for my show on frdiday, which should be a fun time, as i scribble alternative last choruses... re-wording certain things that have grown insignificant. some feelings that i can't relate to anymore. but even more, there are lines in certain songs that i cannot understand and i might never understand again. i wonder if i should reword songs - as if i'm taking something away from them. either way, i just do whwat i've gotta do.
i'm also graduating from highschool tomorrow. holy fucking shit. i don't think that i can even handle the thought of it. i think i was more prepared to graduate when i was in eigth grade. i guess that's how it always is. you only want something if it's not gonna happen. and the second it does happen, you get fucking scared. i dont even know what i'm scared of. is my fear completely unjustified if i don't know what it's pointed towards? i fucking hope not. because then most of my emotionals have no validity whatso ever.
i've been starting to become friends with people who i never thought id be close to. and i love that feeling a lot. i mean, a few in particular. and one who was bound to be close to me sometime. that's what happens when youve known someone for 11 years.
all i've got to say is that gthings get in the way, life is only half of the game we play...
i've got a new set list for my show on frdiday, which should be a fun time, as i scribble alternative last choruses... re-wording certain things that have grown insignificant. some feelings that i can't relate to anymore. but even more, there are lines in certain songs that i cannot understand and i might never understand again. i wonder if i should reword songs - as if i'm taking something away from them. either way, i just do whwat i've gotta do.
i'm also graduating from highschool tomorrow. holy fucking shit. i don't think that i can even handle the thought of it. i think i was more prepared to graduate when i was in eigth grade. i guess that's how it always is. you only want something if it's not gonna happen. and the second it does happen, you get fucking scared. i dont even know what i'm scared of. is my fear completely unjustified if i don't know what it's pointed towards? i fucking hope not. because then most of my emotionals have no validity whatso ever.
i've been starting to become friends with people who i never thought id be close to. and i love that feeling a lot. i mean, a few in particular. and one who was bound to be close to me sometime. that's what happens when youve known someone for 11 years.
all i've got to say is that gthings get in the way, life is only half of the game we play...