lets start over shall we?
ok so i'm an IDIOT and a MORONIC lowlife who can't keep a simple journal as a resolution of strength
shall i blame it on school (s), tons of work, family issues, lack of recollection to update?
maybe so
anywho i will try to update more, and as often as possible since this is my brain away from my body, my solitude of thoughts
once again if you have something negative to say, keep it to yourself, i will toloerate no crap here
anyways, back from the band trip to SAN FRANSISCO it was cool, better than the majority of us thought it would turn out. it was cold, windy and rainy, but flip flops are still my number one ^_^
senior project has gotten me on the verge of insanity but i should be complete very soon, especially since i have nothing to do all day long but sit at home, so eh........
my dad came back from florida with a bundle of depression for me, i got a lot of things that were left in my gramma Karnes' trailor, an angel necklace, a geisha music box statue, jewlery box, ring holder, pillow and others little things. my aunt jan sent me my graduation gift, a 24 carat gold necklace with a diamond in the middle (its a solid gold star with a small diaomd in the middle) very expensive and i'm very affraid to wear it, but i look forward to adorn it on graduation day (((((((((((hopefully)))))))))))) so i cried and cried, i miss her so much, its just not fair. one gramma struggled to live and see me from across the country while the other lives a few blocks away and could care less about me and was never there for me. don't get me wrong i love her, but i just wish she could have been a better gramma and not a drunken, smoke preserved body exisitng under slef pitty.
my life isn't getting any easier, senior year was supposed to be great and amazing, it seems to be fallling quite short of my high expectations, but maybe i brought this upon myself. i am an idiot of course, always waiting. well guess what, i'm not going to live my life just waiting, give me crap and i'll yell. i'm not going to be in the shadows anymore, i'm stronger now, punch me i bleed but belive me, test me and i won't be the only one bloody........
in the words of Vtimin C.................."put a simle on your face, make the world a little bit better"
shall i blame it on school (s), tons of work, family issues, lack of recollection to update?
maybe so
anywho i will try to update more, and as often as possible since this is my brain away from my body, my solitude of thoughts
once again if you have something negative to say, keep it to yourself, i will toloerate no crap here
anyways, back from the band trip to SAN FRANSISCO it was cool, better than the majority of us thought it would turn out. it was cold, windy and rainy, but flip flops are still my number one ^_^
senior project has gotten me on the verge of insanity but i should be complete very soon, especially since i have nothing to do all day long but sit at home, so eh........
my dad came back from florida with a bundle of depression for me, i got a lot of things that were left in my gramma Karnes' trailor, an angel necklace, a geisha music box statue, jewlery box, ring holder, pillow and others little things. my aunt jan sent me my graduation gift, a 24 carat gold necklace with a diamond in the middle (its a solid gold star with a small diaomd in the middle) very expensive and i'm very affraid to wear it, but i look forward to adorn it on graduation day (((((((((((hopefully)))))))))))) so i cried and cried, i miss her so much, its just not fair. one gramma struggled to live and see me from across the country while the other lives a few blocks away and could care less about me and was never there for me. don't get me wrong i love her, but i just wish she could have been a better gramma and not a drunken, smoke preserved body exisitng under slef pitty.
my life isn't getting any easier, senior year was supposed to be great and amazing, it seems to be fallling quite short of my high expectations, but maybe i brought this upon myself. i am an idiot of course, always waiting. well guess what, i'm not going to live my life just waiting, give me crap and i'll yell. i'm not going to be in the shadows anymore, i'm stronger now, punch me i bleed but belive me, test me and i won't be the only one bloody........
in the words of Vtimin C.................."put a simle on your face, make the world a little bit better"