more whining for all you
hey, ehh, an okay day.
in the morning i stared at julia and how fucking beautiful she is and she was passing mildred her photo album, including of course her modeling pictures, god...
i feel like asking her, "why are you so pretty?"
shes just so stunning it depresses me. so i didn't eat breakfast and i went to where i always see sara and cried feeling bad about myself as usual. then sara comes and we talk for a little bit and she tells me about this dream she had, quite interesting. so then kenia comes and kills sara, awwwww :[ but luckily olivia saves me from the crime scene and we walk about. i go to guitar. condura is all, "I'M SO BEAUTIFUL IT BURNS!" and i stare in shock. she asked for a mirror. i gave her mine. and it has that powder thingy...and she says,
"I'M TOO PRETTY FOR MAkE-UP!!"
and i stare at her, in horror.
how can two people, with complete different opinions of themselves, even reside in a room 2 feet away from each other? i asked her how she could have so much self-esteem...and she responds, "its honesty!!" and i dunno so i give up and she put on these purple stone things on the outer corners of my eyes (eye boogers) because she thought they were cute. i dunno.
so i go to math and write down some crap then lunch sucked then went back to class and fell asleep while ms deju rambled on about things i already understand, did my work and went to sleep again, then stole kenia's purple ribbon and wore it as a headband which made my hair look purple for some reason and before kenia got a chance to chase me around for it someone came and picked me up to go home, yay.
so yeah and blah blah blah my psychologist took forever to get to his office so i fell asleep again and then blah blah and said i looked thinner and i told him to kiss my ass so i told him about the band trip to tennesse and he convinced my mother i should go but i dunno i have other things i should waste the gifts of my birthday on.
i dunno if i'll be all alone and a week alone in tennesse, i'll run away to michigan.
so then yeah and i found out i lost another 4 lbs, wtf i don't notice anything.
so then i was taken to office depot to get a sketch pad and calligraphy pens but my mom said no so i got ordinary pens.
my psychologist, he's colombian and related to a colombian super star musician, and he told me his cousin musician wants to meet me because he told his cousin i'm a very talented girl and i dunno and now i'm going to meet a spanish super star, oh yay :D, not.
i dunno. so then blah blah and i had an arguement with my mom and that pretty much ruined it all and then paul tells me hes skinny and i dunno i guess happy with himself so i'm alone to have no self esteem now.
i dunno...i'm in a not good mood...i mean julia, and then fionn, and then i dunno myself and everything and your mother and nadine is also miserable and the world is becoming miserable and i'm miserable and i miss being ignorant.
i dunno...the way nadine describes the happiness she had with luciano but the shittyness that came with it was the same way i was with fionn...fionn drew this amazing thing for julia...i dunno beauty just depresses the living shit out of me...
of all people to held with this...why me? i dunno.
fate hates me? i dunno. unless you know me in person you should more than likely know what i mean...i dunno...
oh no and now i'm having a conversation about masturbation.
:( :( :(
in the morning i stared at julia and how fucking beautiful she is and she was passing mildred her photo album, including of course her modeling pictures, god...
i feel like asking her, "why are you so pretty?"
shes just so stunning it depresses me. so i didn't eat breakfast and i went to where i always see sara and cried feeling bad about myself as usual. then sara comes and we talk for a little bit and she tells me about this dream she had, quite interesting. so then kenia comes and kills sara, awwwww :[ but luckily olivia saves me from the crime scene and we walk about. i go to guitar. condura is all, "I'M SO BEAUTIFUL IT BURNS!" and i stare in shock. she asked for a mirror. i gave her mine. and it has that powder thingy...and she says,
"I'M TOO PRETTY FOR MAkE-UP!!"
and i stare at her, in horror.
how can two people, with complete different opinions of themselves, even reside in a room 2 feet away from each other? i asked her how she could have so much self-esteem...and she responds, "its honesty!!" and i dunno so i give up and she put on these purple stone things on the outer corners of my eyes (eye boogers) because she thought they were cute. i dunno.
so i go to math and write down some crap then lunch sucked then went back to class and fell asleep while ms deju rambled on about things i already understand, did my work and went to sleep again, then stole kenia's purple ribbon and wore it as a headband which made my hair look purple for some reason and before kenia got a chance to chase me around for it someone came and picked me up to go home, yay.
so yeah and blah blah blah my psychologist took forever to get to his office so i fell asleep again and then blah blah and said i looked thinner and i told him to kiss my ass so i told him about the band trip to tennesse and he convinced my mother i should go but i dunno i have other things i should waste the gifts of my birthday on.
i dunno if i'll be all alone and a week alone in tennesse, i'll run away to michigan.
so then yeah and i found out i lost another 4 lbs, wtf i don't notice anything.
so then i was taken to office depot to get a sketch pad and calligraphy pens but my mom said no so i got ordinary pens.
my psychologist, he's colombian and related to a colombian super star musician, and he told me his cousin musician wants to meet me because he told his cousin i'm a very talented girl and i dunno and now i'm going to meet a spanish super star, oh yay :D, not.
i dunno. so then blah blah and i had an arguement with my mom and that pretty much ruined it all and then paul tells me hes skinny and i dunno i guess happy with himself so i'm alone to have no self esteem now.
i dunno...i'm in a not good mood...i mean julia, and then fionn, and then i dunno myself and everything and your mother and nadine is also miserable and the world is becoming miserable and i'm miserable and i miss being ignorant.
i dunno...the way nadine describes the happiness she had with luciano but the shittyness that came with it was the same way i was with fionn...fionn drew this amazing thing for julia...i dunno beauty just depresses the living shit out of me...
of all people to held with this...why me? i dunno.
fate hates me? i dunno. unless you know me in person you should more than likely know what i mean...i dunno...
oh no and now i'm having a conversation about masturbation.
:( :( :(