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i have so many things to say. and i really want to write. but i can't seem to get the words together... for english, for yearbook, for my panel, for this lj. even my other lj, the one that only i read - i can't get the words to come out. i guess it's not meant to be.
things have been so awesome lately... and so utterly crappy at the same time. i wish things would even out. i hate having a great time and laughing and just loving everything ... then coming home and sobbing for an hour because of other stuff.
the stress is really starting to get to me. take yesterday in AP, for example. :shakes head: that wasn't cool. but i know i'm stressed ... i read a little thing online and i had almost all the symptoms. especially the one a bout sleeping too much - i can't stay awake anymore. i keep taking naps, and i've almost fallen asleep in class so many times lately... one of these days i'm actually gonna fall asleep.
wow, i have so much to do before .. tomorrow, i guess. mostly my panel. i haven't had time to work on it, or when i have it's *not* been a good time :-/ i don't think i'll work on it much tonight, though, cuz i need to sleep.
walking in the rain tonight was amazing... so relaxing - i didn't think about anything bad. :tries to keep that same frame of mind while sitting here, but fails:
everything is closing in on me, and everything is moving so fast. i wish things would just stop, or at least slow down. i need a break.
spring break can't come soon enough.
Ren:
We've only been here 3 days and already
Chicago seems a million miles away
But we were barely hanging on there
'Specially with my father gone there's
Not too many places we could stay
And maybe Mom could find a job that's steady
And maybe I could stand it for a year
And maybe things won't be so bad
And maybe I won't miss my Dad
And maybe we could start a new life here
things have been so awesome lately... and so utterly crappy at the same time. i wish things would even out. i hate having a great time and laughing and just loving everything ... then coming home and sobbing for an hour because of other stuff.
the stress is really starting to get to me. take yesterday in AP, for example. :shakes head: that wasn't cool. but i know i'm stressed ... i read a little thing online and i had almost all the symptoms. especially the one a bout sleeping too much - i can't stay awake anymore. i keep taking naps, and i've almost fallen asleep in class so many times lately... one of these days i'm actually gonna fall asleep.
wow, i have so much to do before .. tomorrow, i guess. mostly my panel. i haven't had time to work on it, or when i have it's *not* been a good time :-/ i don't think i'll work on it much tonight, though, cuz i need to sleep.
walking in the rain tonight was amazing... so relaxing - i didn't think about anything bad. :tries to keep that same frame of mind while sitting here, but fails:
everything is closing in on me, and everything is moving so fast. i wish things would just stop, or at least slow down. i need a break.
spring break can't come soon enough.
Ren:
We've only been here 3 days and already
Chicago seems a million miles away
But we were barely hanging on there
'Specially with my father gone there's
Not too many places we could stay
And maybe Mom could find a job that's steady
And maybe I could stand it for a year
And maybe things won't be so bad
And maybe I won't miss my Dad
And maybe we could start a new life here