rants.
have you ever had a really bad feeling about something, and you totally want to dismiss it as just your imagination, but you really are unsure of what it is? and you know that its got to be something, because if it wasnt something, it wouldnt bug you that much. *sigh* i know that i have to be paranoid, and its just me..but what if im wrong? what if me being paranoid is the right thing, what if something is wrong? i mean, who doesnt call their girlfriend after they havent seen them for more than two weeks? in fact, who doesnt call their girlfriend back when she is trying to make plans, even to just say "sorry i cant"? ughhhh! goddamnit. this really gets me so worked up and frustrated. you know, i would put this on my myspace, but if alex sees it he'll probably get pissed off and say that im being clingy or some shit like that. *shakes head* why do i always get myself into these things? i know he probably is busy or something, but hes stopped getting online and he doesnt send me messages or cute comments or anything anymore. and he doesnt call! and he doesnt even seem to be making ANY effort AT ALL to see me. but why the hell not! i have every right to want to see him, dont i? *sigh* god i hate this. did the thought of calling me cross his mind ever? and if its his cell phone, hasnt he listened to my messages or seen that ive called? it rings when i call. so does his house phone. but nooo, noone can ever pick up. of course not, thats FAR too much to ask, certainly. and im totally not snappy and sarcastic or anything, i dont get upset. i just act normal and nice. and what do i get? THREE DAYS AND NO CALL. the last time i saw him was july 28th. thats seventeen days. SEVENTEEN DAYS! weve been going out for two months. some people might be able to do that, but i havent talked to him on the phone more than , what, 6 times during that whole period of seventeen days. and some were twice in one day. and only ONE time, he called me. fucking hell, why is it wrong of me to want him to call me?! "alex, why dont you call?" "i dont know." "alex, can you call?" "i dont know"/// WHAT THE FUCK! i dont know..i just hope this all gets sorted out. and if anyone has seen alex, please tell him to call. or stick your foot up his ass, maybe.
Oh at least you could trust
(and we just will be closer)
For this one last time
(let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(don't let us grow colder)
For this one last time
(let me close to your heart)
Oh at least you could trust
(and we just will be closer)
For this one last time
(let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(don't let us grow colder)
For this one last time
(let me close to your heart)