Jun 07, 2005 11:41
ever so sweet,
you make this seem.
so its the end of me and jac for good this time. i always anticipated that we would be together somehow, no matter how many others there were. but i guess...i was wrong.
have you ever had your heart ripped out and handed to you?
he told me it would hurt. he told me to get some brandy, told me to sit down.
"there's this girl."
nothing could have prepared me for that. he says its me. he says she doesnt have any problems, she is amazing. how she is always happy. how i am never happy. how he doesnt feel for me. how he needed an upgrade. that i am to absorbed in myself, and i never accept the blame.
he doesnt see how i dont blame other people, and in doing that i hurt myself. he doesnt know that he should have been willing to listen.
and now that he says he is, i dont even want it.
he knew jon did it. he knew zack did it. so why did he?
maybe i'll never know.
can't you see the wall you've built for me?