well.... it's been awhile
...to say the least. but i haven't abandoned my journal. to catch things up to speed....
that pretty much brings things up to speed. throw in the few new pets... 3rd cat, hermit crabs (which i no longer have) a bunch of fish (which are living in my parents pond) and a new gecko.. and pretty soon a dog and that about sums it up.
our house is absolutely awesome. it was built in 1918. it's 2 story, has a front porch and a porch swing and tons of woodwork inside. i'm not thrilled with iowa. it stinks, literally... mo can attest to that. i have to drive an hour to get back to civilization... did i mention i live in a town with only 3000 people? i went from 70k to 20k to 3k...
i miss oklahoma a lot. i miss eating at teds, hideaway pizza, cafe 501, johnny's, panera... i miss all the friends i have in stilly. i miss my family and the warm weather. it's already snowed up here. and it's not like oklahoma snow... where it stays for one, maybe 2 days and then is gone... it stayed for almost a week and then finally melted.
my most dreaded time of the year is coming... thanksgiving, my birthday and christmas... thanksgiving is my least favorite holiday... and then my birthday. it'll be my first ever without my parents around. sad. not exactly looking forward to that... or being 24... mid-twenties... am i really going to be that old? at least i'll get to see my family at christmas... feel bad that we can't see isaac's as well. we're 10 hours away from everyone... inlaws or family.
i was looking back at old entries... and i found this website Color Quiz and it was pretty accurate, so i took it again.
Your Existing Situation
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.
Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.
Your Desired Objective
Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
Your Actual Problem #2
Feels insufficiently valued in her existing situation, and is seeking different conditions in which she will have greater opportunity of demonstrating her worth.
i got completely different results from 2 years ago... but i'd say it's still pretty accurate.
- i got engaged, summer 2003 (still writing in journal at that point)
- took a break from school, spring 2004
- started working at walmart, spring 2004
- got married december 18th 2004... love my dress.. wish i could wear it all the time.
- went to hawaii (maui) for the honeymoon. (never wanted to leave)
- hubby graduated, spring 2005
- july 2005, hubby was offered nice paying engineering job.... in iowa
- end of july 2005, we bought an awesome house, in iowa...
- end of july 2005, we moved up here to iowa.
- august 2005, i quit walmart... (the one up here is tiny... only 7 registers, seriously...)
- november 2005, i started working at a daycare... (i never would have guessed)
that pretty much brings things up to speed. throw in the few new pets... 3rd cat, hermit crabs (which i no longer have) a bunch of fish (which are living in my parents pond) and a new gecko.. and pretty soon a dog and that about sums it up.
our house is absolutely awesome. it was built in 1918. it's 2 story, has a front porch and a porch swing and tons of woodwork inside. i'm not thrilled with iowa. it stinks, literally... mo can attest to that. i have to drive an hour to get back to civilization... did i mention i live in a town with only 3000 people? i went from 70k to 20k to 3k...
i miss oklahoma a lot. i miss eating at teds, hideaway pizza, cafe 501, johnny's, panera... i miss all the friends i have in stilly. i miss my family and the warm weather. it's already snowed up here. and it's not like oklahoma snow... where it stays for one, maybe 2 days and then is gone... it stayed for almost a week and then finally melted.
my most dreaded time of the year is coming... thanksgiving, my birthday and christmas... thanksgiving is my least favorite holiday... and then my birthday. it'll be my first ever without my parents around. sad. not exactly looking forward to that... or being 24... mid-twenties... am i really going to be that old? at least i'll get to see my family at christmas... feel bad that we can't see isaac's as well. we're 10 hours away from everyone... inlaws or family.
i was looking back at old entries... and i found this website Color Quiz and it was pretty accurate, so i took it again.
Your Existing Situation
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.
Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.
Your Desired Objective
Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
Your Actual Problem #2
Feels insufficiently valued in her existing situation, and is seeking different conditions in which she will have greater opportunity of demonstrating her worth.
i got completely different results from 2 years ago... but i'd say it's still pretty accurate.