The need to update fills me
So I am updating.
I enjoyed my memorial day weekend IMMENSLY!! Now I really want out of this area. I would be happy living in Seattle or maybe even heading to Hollywood to check out that scene I have a place to crash and somebody to show me the ins and outs of the city. Not to mention somewhere to dance basicly every since night...no more of this once a week stuff I could get my fill of dancing. I really want out of this area, but I am stuck here until I get off probation and if that takes more than 2 more years...I might just crack I dunno if I can handle it for much longer than that.
I am really enjoying the fact I am on stage again. It has been almost 2 years and since I had to drop the last show I did which really hurt to do, this has felt great. The challenge of memorizing Shakespeare has made me feel intellectually challenged like i have not had in a long time. It invigorates me and energizes me soo much. I really missed doing theatre. Thank goodness for Tom and his independent productions he has started, because I am not sure I would be allowed to do a Civic production, not because Pat won't let me, but My PO might not let me. That seems to be something she was worried about when I first told her about this production with Tom.
I realize also how I have grown apart and away from some people. Some due to distance like Jesse and Melissa, and others just due to life style and not doing things with each other anymore...like Laurie I found out tonight she got married...and that was the first I heard about anything along those lines, I was a little bit surprised, as well as a alittle bit put off by the fact that I was not told.
Things change people change you just have to adapt and move on. My biggest problem right now is that I can't really move on...I am stuck here the farthest I am allowed to move right now is possibly to moscow. I can't even move across the river to Clarkston. These restrictions I have dealt with for almost 15 months now and at first it was really hard and irritating, then I got more used to it, but after getting out to Seattle and seeing other people move on the fact I am stuck in this hellhole called Lewiston right now....is really starting to bug me again. I can't afford to move out on my own either I need a roomate to keep my rent down...and you know the main reason I can't afford to move out? the $240+ dollars a month I pay in fees to probation and the counseling I am required to take for my "problem". That money right there would cover rent on most apartments with a roommate or 2.
OK I am stopping now I am getting more annoyed by the second as I get this out.
I enjoyed my memorial day weekend IMMENSLY!! Now I really want out of this area. I would be happy living in Seattle or maybe even heading to Hollywood to check out that scene I have a place to crash and somebody to show me the ins and outs of the city. Not to mention somewhere to dance basicly every since night...no more of this once a week stuff I could get my fill of dancing. I really want out of this area, but I am stuck here until I get off probation and if that takes more than 2 more years...I might just crack I dunno if I can handle it for much longer than that.
I am really enjoying the fact I am on stage again. It has been almost 2 years and since I had to drop the last show I did which really hurt to do, this has felt great. The challenge of memorizing Shakespeare has made me feel intellectually challenged like i have not had in a long time. It invigorates me and energizes me soo much. I really missed doing theatre. Thank goodness for Tom and his independent productions he has started, because I am not sure I would be allowed to do a Civic production, not because Pat won't let me, but My PO might not let me. That seems to be something she was worried about when I first told her about this production with Tom.
I realize also how I have grown apart and away from some people. Some due to distance like Jesse and Melissa, and others just due to life style and not doing things with each other anymore...like Laurie I found out tonight she got married...and that was the first I heard about anything along those lines, I was a little bit surprised, as well as a alittle bit put off by the fact that I was not told.
Things change people change you just have to adapt and move on. My biggest problem right now is that I can't really move on...I am stuck here the farthest I am allowed to move right now is possibly to moscow. I can't even move across the river to Clarkston. These restrictions I have dealt with for almost 15 months now and at first it was really hard and irritating, then I got more used to it, but after getting out to Seattle and seeing other people move on the fact I am stuck in this hellhole called Lewiston right now....is really starting to bug me again. I can't afford to move out on my own either I need a roomate to keep my rent down...and you know the main reason I can't afford to move out? the $240+ dollars a month I pay in fees to probation and the counseling I am required to take for my "problem". That money right there would cover rent on most apartments with a roommate or 2.
OK I am stopping now I am getting more annoyed by the second as I get this out.