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im not one of those girls that has to be with someone, or has to have someone to rely on. i have myself for that. i have a high level of independence, and i kind of like that. but sometimes i want to know that its okay to let someone walk beside you.
what i want is to get past a title. i want to care enough to express how i feel, and be able to communicate that. i want to be able to show him my worst, and my best, and myself. i want to not worry so much, and be able to trust. i want a call just to say "hi" or "i was thinking about you." i want to know he can be just as weird as me or just as serious. i want to think to myself "you. you are amazing." i want to hold hands. and cuddle. and hug. and kiss. i want to know its okay to have a silence, and not an awkward kind of silence, but a nice kind of silence. i want to miss him, and think about him, and not be afraid to tell him my secrets. i want to stay up late talking and fall asleep in his arms, only to wake up in the middle of the night to the sound of his heartbeat and realize that our breathing patterns are the same.
i suppose, this would be selfish. if what i wanted, wasnt what i needed.
... It's so me.
what i want is to get past a title. i want to care enough to express how i feel, and be able to communicate that. i want to be able to show him my worst, and my best, and myself. i want to not worry so much, and be able to trust. i want a call just to say "hi" or "i was thinking about you." i want to know he can be just as weird as me or just as serious. i want to think to myself "you. you are amazing." i want to hold hands. and cuddle. and hug. and kiss. i want to know its okay to have a silence, and not an awkward kind of silence, but a nice kind of silence. i want to miss him, and think about him, and not be afraid to tell him my secrets. i want to stay up late talking and fall asleep in his arms, only to wake up in the middle of the night to the sound of his heartbeat and realize that our breathing patterns are the same.
i suppose, this would be selfish. if what i wanted, wasnt what i needed.
... It's so me.