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[midnightmatinee]

well after i wrote that last entry things got better..
but now bad again..
i swear, i hate it..
i was hanging out with heather and she was telling me all these things i should have told him.
and i know i should have..
but i couldnt bring myself to do it..
i cant be mean because im scared he will get mad and leave me..
and i forgot how to live without him.
its like neither one of is in a good mood.
and i always want to see him but he never cares about seeing me.
so when we are together it seems like he doesnt want to be there and so it just ruins it for me.
its like neither one of us can be satisfied.
sometimes everything is ok but sometimes its like things suck..
i dont know what to say about it.
i love him
and i love being around him.
but i get the feeling he doesnt care to be around me..
and i hate writing entries like this because i dont want to hurt people feelings and i hate go back and read it and hurt my own feelings.