She wrote me a letter as we passed through Rockford, she said she won't forget....
this week has been.... well, something else.
for now, for this moment, i think i'm okay.... but, like everything else that's happened lately, i'm quite sure that it will only last a short time.
i don't really know what to do with myself.....
i totally let my guard down and i got burned. it's unfortunate... and i don't think that i did anything to deserve it.. in fact, i think that i stuck around enough to deserve a lot better...
sometimes it just feels good to have someone fight for you.... oh well, we'll see.
the worst part is that as soon as i think i'm sure of something, something happens that throws everything off again.
even though i can look at the situation and see the smart thing to do... my heart is telling me something else... and it would be so hard....
i'm weak.
the point is, i shouldn't be feeling like this... especially right now when i have so much else to worry about...
you act like you're so much worse off... it's ridiculous.... you have no idea... "surrounded by all these people".. it's bullshit.. i barely know anyone... and there's no way to get away whenever i want... i needed you so much and you failed me. i'd look forward to the next time i'd see you every second of the day and now i don't know anymore...
the phone call scared me... then it just hurt me more. you're definitely not ready.. i'm not ready. i told you i didn't trust people easily at all... thanks for reminding me why.
i never thought i'd be put in this situation.
it just really isn't fair.
but honestly, thank you for getting me back on track... i think it's what i needed.
for now, for this moment, i think i'm okay.... but, like everything else that's happened lately, i'm quite sure that it will only last a short time.
i don't really know what to do with myself.....
i totally let my guard down and i got burned. it's unfortunate... and i don't think that i did anything to deserve it.. in fact, i think that i stuck around enough to deserve a lot better...
sometimes it just feels good to have someone fight for you.... oh well, we'll see.
the worst part is that as soon as i think i'm sure of something, something happens that throws everything off again.
even though i can look at the situation and see the smart thing to do... my heart is telling me something else... and it would be so hard....
i'm weak.
the point is, i shouldn't be feeling like this... especially right now when i have so much else to worry about...
you act like you're so much worse off... it's ridiculous.... you have no idea... "surrounded by all these people".. it's bullshit.. i barely know anyone... and there's no way to get away whenever i want... i needed you so much and you failed me. i'd look forward to the next time i'd see you every second of the day and now i don't know anymore...
the phone call scared me... then it just hurt me more. you're definitely not ready.. i'm not ready. i told you i didn't trust people easily at all... thanks for reminding me why.
i never thought i'd be put in this situation.
it just really isn't fair.
but honestly, thank you for getting me back on track... i think it's what i needed.