i got nothing

[midnightmanic]

Today was a good day.

I got a job.
I did the dishes.
saw some old friends,
and fell back in love
with leading my most
authentic
life.

it feels good to be productive.

Although, dispite all this
lately, when i close my eyes,
I keep seeing dollars
assimilate into euros.
i speak in complete fluency.
and it all becomes possible
to drop it all, and run.

if i squint hard enough,
the space needle will be
the eiffel tower, for now.

i realize now,
we are all machines
on a massive maddening dash
to our death.

in the mean time,
i'm waiting for it
to be.