Venting
So, it's been a while, and I only return to gripe because I feel guilty sharing my insecurities constantly with real people. Plus they're always optimistic and want to offer suggestions, and I just want to wallow a little. There isn't much I can do to improve my current situation anyway, i just have to be patient.
I'm frustrated by how long it is taking to build a new studio here. I'm frustrated that a job opened up at another studio that had hired me before, where I could have taken over someone else's studio a couple months ago and I couldn't take it. I'm frustrated that working at the store means that I can't add afternoon/evening hours to my online booking availability. I have done so anyway on 2 days so we'll see if that leads anywhere. I do have a new adult student starting through them next week! But that is in my already open morning times. I just want 4 or 5 people on that site. It would mean 400-500 extra a month which would be beautiful.
I can't really do much more at the store. People don't take woodwind lessons here like they did in CT. The culture is just different. And they don't start as early which gives me a much smaller pool to work with, especially since the high school students do marching band here (which most don't in ct) so they think they're too busy for lessons. Le sigh.
I know I just need to be more patient in this area but I lost 2 students in the last 2 weeks which is really sad. 1 because of the start of the new school year and being too busy with dance, we made soooo much progress and had finally gotten into a good routine. And the other because her mom is on the job search, I get that one for sure, but she's such a cutie and I'll miss her until they hopefully come back. A little red headed 3rd grader who plays a pink plastic flute. Oh the adorable.
I'm doing my job! I'm staying consistent and not taking time off so that I am reliable. The majority of the days I miss are because the desk needs to be covered, and that's not my fault. Josh said he would post the job this week, we'll see. Catch 22, I need the hours, and if I'm at the desk follow ups happen better and I know the job is done well, but I hate it and don't want to do it. Good thing there will be college money coming in a few months. Not a lot this semester from me but a good amount from D.
And that's the other thing. We spend waaaay too much! over 500 a month on groceries and restaurants. I feel like that's extreme even in the groceries category. I've mentioned it to D but we still haven't made any changes. I only average 120 a month on cigarettes but I guess even if I cut that out it would help a lot. That could go to my student loans which I didn't get to pay anything on this last month so my interest has accrued back to where I started 4 or 5 months ago. Such an uphill battle.
So, I do swagbucks and as much arranging as I can in my spare time, plus I play through my album on silent on spotify and youtube almost daily to get royalties, ha! But at this rate it will still take 2 years to reach my minimum payout of $50 since they pay .4 cents a play. I need more sources of income=(
And I'm not even going to start on the lack of gigs.
I'm frustrated by how long it is taking to build a new studio here. I'm frustrated that a job opened up at another studio that had hired me before, where I could have taken over someone else's studio a couple months ago and I couldn't take it. I'm frustrated that working at the store means that I can't add afternoon/evening hours to my online booking availability. I have done so anyway on 2 days so we'll see if that leads anywhere. I do have a new adult student starting through them next week! But that is in my already open morning times. I just want 4 or 5 people on that site. It would mean 400-500 extra a month which would be beautiful.
I can't really do much more at the store. People don't take woodwind lessons here like they did in CT. The culture is just different. And they don't start as early which gives me a much smaller pool to work with, especially since the high school students do marching band here (which most don't in ct) so they think they're too busy for lessons. Le sigh.
I know I just need to be more patient in this area but I lost 2 students in the last 2 weeks which is really sad. 1 because of the start of the new school year and being too busy with dance, we made soooo much progress and had finally gotten into a good routine. And the other because her mom is on the job search, I get that one for sure, but she's such a cutie and I'll miss her until they hopefully come back. A little red headed 3rd grader who plays a pink plastic flute. Oh the adorable.
I'm doing my job! I'm staying consistent and not taking time off so that I am reliable. The majority of the days I miss are because the desk needs to be covered, and that's not my fault. Josh said he would post the job this week, we'll see. Catch 22, I need the hours, and if I'm at the desk follow ups happen better and I know the job is done well, but I hate it and don't want to do it. Good thing there will be college money coming in a few months. Not a lot this semester from me but a good amount from D.
And that's the other thing. We spend waaaay too much! over 500 a month on groceries and restaurants. I feel like that's extreme even in the groceries category. I've mentioned it to D but we still haven't made any changes. I only average 120 a month on cigarettes but I guess even if I cut that out it would help a lot. That could go to my student loans which I didn't get to pay anything on this last month so my interest has accrued back to where I started 4 or 5 months ago. Such an uphill battle.
So, I do swagbucks and as much arranging as I can in my spare time, plus I play through my album on silent on spotify and youtube almost daily to get royalties, ha! But at this rate it will still take 2 years to reach my minimum payout of $50 since they pay .4 cents a play. I need more sources of income=(
And I'm not even going to start on the lack of gigs.