Dechire (Torn)
You know, I've started to realize I'm not happy. I have no reason not to be happy, but I guess I'm just in one of those moods maybe. Well, there has just been a lot on my mind lately. I thought talking to alicia would clear that up but I guess it didnt. It just made room for more things to think about. It sucks so bad...being thoughful and conscious of my feelings and emotions. Sometimes I wish I didn't care how I felt. Maybe if I was detatched from myself a little, but I wouldn't be able to survive like that. I wish I could type more, but I don't even know what to write. God damn it I wish I knew. Frank asked me what it was that I didnt know what to do, but I have no idea. I dont know what to do. those 6 words right there sum it up. I don't know what to do...
thank you.
-Val
thank you.
-Val