oh my god

[midnighteyes504]

ok, so im getting really upset about the things people are posting on here. Leave my goddamn marraige alone!! Its my life, quit questioning my motives and SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT SCHOOL!!! im soooo sick of everyone breathing down my neck..."You only talk about getting married and getting a job." Me being married is exciting to me, and right now its the main thing in my life. im happy right now. happier than ive ever been in my life; ive finally found someone who makes me feel worth anything. jessy is the first person to make me feel like its ok to be me. there is nothing about me that he thinks needs to be changed--he takes the bad and the good and loves it all. noone else has been able to give me the self confidence ive been missing for pretty much my whole damn life. certainly not my parents, who have made me this way. my friends, as great as they are, seem to me to always be prettier and smarter and cooler. and exboyfriends and guys i almost dated before sure never made me feel like i was worth anything. for the first time in my life i like everything about me, so fuck you whoevers leaving the anonymous posts. if nothing else comes out of this marraige, at least i have self esteem now, and that is worth so much to me, to finally be able to look in the mirror and be able to like what i see and to know i like whats inside. so what if right now school isnt what im talking about--dont you think thats to be expected since im excited about whats going on in my life. i moved to a new place and met a wonderful guy that makes me feel completely happy. school is to be continued and i dont need to shout out to everyone--or maybe i do since thats what ive done my last two posts. school is never what im excited about, but its something i know i need if i want to achieve my goals.

anonymous poster, please dont post again. and stop judging me, because im not judging you and your lifestyle. only god can judge me. youre definitely not fuckin god so leave my lj alone. it doesnt concern you.