Looking back on the past...
I guess it all started with Alex finding his old sketchbooks. I wanted to see them but he was embarresed to show me what he deemed his "mistakes". This led into a discussion about my Diaries that I kept over the years since the two were comparable (the idea that we both have something we rather not share to the entire world). It made me think and reflect on my diaries and realize that I didn't mind showing him...well, with the exception of my most recent one. :p I brought them over to his house the next day and I realized, while looking them over, that there was a gap of time between 2001 to the end of 2003 that I have no written record of. I then realized that I used my Live Journal extensively during that time. This led me to browse all of my old entires...
I realized that a lot had happened over those years. It was a hectic time of which I won't divulge too much into due to privacy issue that I'm sure the friends I have now wouldn't be too keen on me bringing them up. There was also a time where I had someone annonomously insulting me in my comments section on certain entries--the coward. It seemed that ever since I put up the IP tracking that no one has bothered me since. I consider that a relief.
But I digress. I've made a decision to print out this whole electronic account of my life and make a book out of it for my own reference; the idea that someday this archive could disapear saddens me. I can't really tell if looking back on those years of my life fills me with happiness or sadness. There were certainly times where I had a blast with all of my friends back in High School. I got very nostalgic from friends such a Robbie and Laura (Not the one dating Beto ^^;; )...though I must say that the deteroriation of communication on my behalf. Sometimes I'm horriible at keeping up with communications, and for that, I apologize.
Another thing that I became upset with was how much I was put on the backburner in terms of previous relationships. There were so many incidences where I felt slighted due to not being a priority in someone's life--and for the record, this was not a case of a "Me Me Me!" scenario...rather one where I would be put into a situation where my value was lowered in comparison to others. I'm glad I'm more assertive in the relationship I'm in now. I've gotten better at voicing my complaints, though very few indeed. I guess that means that I'm in a very satisfying relationship :3 Things are looking up!
I'm starting to ramble, so this is where I'll end things. I'm happy to know I kept such a detailed account of my feelings through the years and I'll be sure to continue to do so with honesty!
I realized that a lot had happened over those years. It was a hectic time of which I won't divulge too much into due to privacy issue that I'm sure the friends I have now wouldn't be too keen on me bringing them up. There was also a time where I had someone annonomously insulting me in my comments section on certain entries--the coward. It seemed that ever since I put up the IP tracking that no one has bothered me since. I consider that a relief.
But I digress. I've made a decision to print out this whole electronic account of my life and make a book out of it for my own reference; the idea that someday this archive could disapear saddens me. I can't really tell if looking back on those years of my life fills me with happiness or sadness. There were certainly times where I had a blast with all of my friends back in High School. I got very nostalgic from friends such a Robbie and Laura (Not the one dating Beto ^^;; )...though I must say that the deteroriation of communication on my behalf. Sometimes I'm horriible at keeping up with communications, and for that, I apologize.
Another thing that I became upset with was how much I was put on the backburner in terms of previous relationships. There were so many incidences where I felt slighted due to not being a priority in someone's life--and for the record, this was not a case of a "Me Me Me!" scenario...rather one where I would be put into a situation where my value was lowered in comparison to others. I'm glad I'm more assertive in the relationship I'm in now. I've gotten better at voicing my complaints, though very few indeed. I guess that means that I'm in a very satisfying relationship :3 Things are looking up!
I'm starting to ramble, so this is where I'll end things. I'm happy to know I kept such a detailed account of my feelings through the years and I'll be sure to continue to do so with honesty!