You can run from me, you can hide from me, but I am right beside you in this life

[midnightangel3]

Well lets see. Things have not been going too good in my life, but I am dealing. Me and Josh are talking again, and that makes me happy - about the only thing that has made me happy lately. I have spent the whole week with Alex and Mandy and I have had an awesome time. I couldnt ask for better friends! (No offense Katie, you know I love you, but with work and living in P-town, it is hard to find time to hang out) It just seems like I had a plan for my life and now everything has changed. Nothing is going according to plan and I dont like it. I like to have control over something, you think my life could be an easy one. But when it is being ran by someone else and you have to live up to THEIR expectations, it makes it kinda hard. I dont know where to turn. I have prayed like it is going out of style and it seems as though not one prayer has been answered. Karma sucks. That is what all of this is....karma. And I dont like it at all. The one thing that could make me happy now seems as though it is lost forever. Josh. The one person who took my mind off of Jon. The greatest gift I could ever ask for. I dont know, I am rambling and talking about stuff that no one wants to hear about. It just overrides my mind and I need to get it out and it seems as though this is the only place that I can do that. But I have to watch what I say because of people. I think I should just start posting privately for myself to read, but then again, I want all of your input and help in situations. Ahhhhhh, I am just angry at the world right now. I hope to change it because I dont like to feel like this. I think I am going to go for now...

KATIE - CALL ME WHEN YOU GET TO L-TOWN - I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!