Summertime, And The Livin's Easy...
As I was staring out of my window earlier, my solution to having work to do but not actually wanting to do any of it, I caught sight of the trees on the lawn blowing casually in the wind. I was watching this girl sitting under a tree with a book on her lap, studying for whatever. This guy went up to her and casually flirted. This is college I thought to myself. This is what it always is in movies. Students lounging under trees in the sunshine while people toss frisbees and kick hacky sacks around them.
But then I watched as a particularly powerful gust stripped leaves from their branches, and I caught my breath as I watched them twirl, tumble, ride the wind to the grass below. It chilled me. I saw myself, from a distance, and I watched as the sky darkened before me and the rain burst forth from what had been, only moments before, a clear blue sky. In an instant it was over. The rain had ceased, the sun had returned, and life moved on. It had only lasted a moment, but a moment was all it took.
The leaves hurt me. A painful reminder of summer's end, an end to something so bad and yet somehow so good that it leaves me furious. I am furious because I don't know how to feel about it. About Madafuckingwaska. About knowing I had to break up with Meghan. About Caitlin coming back. There was so much anger and so much sadness this summer. But so much happiness. Euphoria.
And I watched the leaves fall today.
I watched the Heavens cry. One quick, full sob.
And it was enough.
But then I watched as a particularly powerful gust stripped leaves from their branches, and I caught my breath as I watched them twirl, tumble, ride the wind to the grass below. It chilled me. I saw myself, from a distance, and I watched as the sky darkened before me and the rain burst forth from what had been, only moments before, a clear blue sky. In an instant it was over. The rain had ceased, the sun had returned, and life moved on. It had only lasted a moment, but a moment was all it took.
The leaves hurt me. A painful reminder of summer's end, an end to something so bad and yet somehow so good that it leaves me furious. I am furious because I don't know how to feel about it. About Madafuckingwaska. About knowing I had to break up with Meghan. About Caitlin coming back. There was so much anger and so much sadness this summer. But so much happiness. Euphoria.
And I watched the leaves fall today.
I watched the Heavens cry. One quick, full sob.
And it was enough.