Laziness or Really Ready?
I know college is supposed to be the best time of your life and you're supposed to treasure every moment of it, but honestly... I'm done. Don't get me wrong, I have had the best years of my life while here and at the end of last year, I couldn't believe I only had one more year left - it had all seemed to go much too fast. Even when this year began, I felt like I just didn't want to leave. Things have changed since then. Maybe it's because the majority of my friends graduated last year... maybe it's because nothing can ever top fun that I had last year.... maybe I'm just lazy.... but I'm ready for it to be done. Sure, I don't exactly want to spend the rest of my life working and I love the fact that I can live with my friends and do stupid shit without people thinking much of it... but for some reason, I feel like I should be moving on from this particular point in my life. If I could have the kind of year that I had last year all the time, I would never want to leave... the problem is, I can't have what I had last year and I treasure the moments I had. As for now, I hate going to classes and the only reasons I do is because I have nothing better to be doing (that could be do to the fact that I don't have much interest in any of the classes I'm taking)... I have no motivation to work on any kind of grad school applications (I haven't even started)... and I today I felt like I really wasn't happy with what I was doing. Granted, I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up... in fact, I hate it when people ask me that question and I can't wait for that question to stop being asked. Maybe I'm interpreting this all wrong, but I feel it's time to move on.