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that statement is applicable to pretty much every part of my life right now.
My boss really screwed me over this week. just because he's a dick. and it made me realize how delicate my situation is. and how easily anyone could completely ruin me.
if cruiser doesn't sort this out for me, I probably won't be able to make rent on June 1st.
my loathing for everyone rich increases everyday. if Vinnie were to close the restaurant for a week, it wouldn't put a dent in his wallet, but I could possibly end up homeless.
My last oddfellow's performance ever was last night. It hit me just as I walked offstage after the curtain call. and I cried hysterically, and then just kind of pushed the feeling down. and today CW randomly texted me: "you gave it a great run and it was fun acting with you. you went out with a bang and I'm gonna miss you." and I cried some more.
today was such a shitty day. I just cried a lot. about nothing.
I realize that I'm waiting for someone else to make me happy, and that's not right. but I simply don't know how to do it myself. I never have.
that statement is applicable to pretty much every part of my life right now.
My boss really screwed me over this week. just because he's a dick. and it made me realize how delicate my situation is. and how easily anyone could completely ruin me.
if cruiser doesn't sort this out for me, I probably won't be able to make rent on June 1st.
my loathing for everyone rich increases everyday. if Vinnie were to close the restaurant for a week, it wouldn't put a dent in his wallet, but I could possibly end up homeless.
My last oddfellow's performance ever was last night. It hit me just as I walked offstage after the curtain call. and I cried hysterically, and then just kind of pushed the feeling down. and today CW randomly texted me: "you gave it a great run and it was fun acting with you. you went out with a bang and I'm gonna miss you." and I cried some more.
today was such a shitty day. I just cried a lot. about nothing.
I realize that I'm waiting for someone else to make me happy, and that's not right. but I simply don't know how to do it myself. I never have.