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IM BACK PEOPLE~
okay, this is gunna be a really hyper post as compared to my last one (it was friends-only though).
KYAAAAAA~
Me,
fucked_dollie,
tokyovampire and Uenki are going to form a band!!
Hara on DRUMS
Kero on BASS
Uenki on GUITAR
Me on VOCALS
But, we havent named ourselves yet! Can anyone suggest any names..?
I'm the LEADER SAMA~ and I get to design the outfits!
-is immaculately happy-
Also, I get to write the lyrics!!
But of course, I'll hand the reign over to my sempais ^_^
I thought it was a little awkward that I, being the youngest of the four of us, am the leader. Because..I dont wanna seem bossy. I love them too much ^_^
I know that right now my prelims are coming up, and nothing really is more important than this prelim at the moment, but I really don't care.
I simply cannot push myself enough to care for this prelims.
But it was because the way Hara sempai reacted back when we all decided to really form the band. She was really ovewhelmed and quiet, but in my excitement I had failed to see that. She was sitting on my lap at that time too. aaa she's like a cushion ne.
And when Kero sempai called me later that night when I got home, she told me all about the things Hara told her.
I was so touched by the both of them, I really just sat down and thought.
An hour or so passed, and then I realized that I was crying.
I was crying because I was upset with myself that I didn't care for what was blatantly THE most supposedly important thing in my life at the moment right now.
I was crying because I was angry at myself that I didnt care.
I hated myself because I took it so lightly, when they were worried like crazy for me.
I just plain hated myself, but loved them all the more.
Now, they are my sole motivators.
I'm not even forcing myself to do well for me.
Not even for my own parents.
But for them.
You may think I'm being unfilial, but I really think this way.
Because of all the retarded shit going on in my life, I have matured more than most of my peers. I have thought long and hard, and I realize, that I really can't do this alone.
I'm not discarding my own good school friends, but it just seems as though as they've faded into my memory, and only exist when I want them to.
I now only go to school to learn, and grow, not to socialize.
It's not important.
But what really ,matters to me now is that I passed ,and well, so that I can make my sempais happy and proud of me.
You guys know this. But I mean my words.
I would really hate myself if I ever disappoint you.
Because you really mean the world to me now,
and you make my day seem happier.
thank you, once again.
thank you.
That is all.
I'll go study now. Maybe even train my vocals for a bit, since I hadn't the energy to do it yesterday. hmm.
Have a nice day everyone.
okay, this is gunna be a really hyper post as compared to my last one (it was friends-only though).
KYAAAAAA~
Me,
fucked_dollie,
tokyovampire and Uenki are going to form a band!!
Hara on DRUMS
Kero on BASS
Uenki on GUITAR
Me on VOCALS
But, we havent named ourselves yet! Can anyone suggest any names..?
I'm the LEADER SAMA~ and I get to design the outfits!
-is immaculately happy-
Also, I get to write the lyrics!!
But of course, I'll hand the reign over to my sempais ^_^
I thought it was a little awkward that I, being the youngest of the four of us, am the leader. Because..I dont wanna seem bossy. I love them too much ^_^
I know that right now my prelims are coming up, and nothing really is more important than this prelim at the moment, but I really don't care.
I simply cannot push myself enough to care for this prelims.
But it was because the way Hara sempai reacted back when we all decided to really form the band. She was really ovewhelmed and quiet, but in my excitement I had failed to see that. She was sitting on my lap at that time too. aaa she's like a cushion ne.
And when Kero sempai called me later that night when I got home, she told me all about the things Hara told her.
I was so touched by the both of them, I really just sat down and thought.
An hour or so passed, and then I realized that I was crying.
I was crying because I was upset with myself that I didn't care for what was blatantly THE most supposedly important thing in my life at the moment right now.
I was crying because I was angry at myself that I didnt care.
I hated myself because I took it so lightly, when they were worried like crazy for me.
I just plain hated myself, but loved them all the more.
Now, they are my sole motivators.
I'm not even forcing myself to do well for me.
Not even for my own parents.
But for them.
You may think I'm being unfilial, but I really think this way.
Because of all the retarded shit going on in my life, I have matured more than most of my peers. I have thought long and hard, and I realize, that I really can't do this alone.
I'm not discarding my own good school friends, but it just seems as though as they've faded into my memory, and only exist when I want them to.
I now only go to school to learn, and grow, not to socialize.
It's not important.
But what really ,matters to me now is that I passed ,and well, so that I can make my sempais happy and proud of me.
You guys know this. But I mean my words.
I would really hate myself if I ever disappoint you.
Because you really mean the world to me now,
and you make my day seem happier.
thank you, once again.
thank you.
That is all.
I'll go study now. Maybe even train my vocals for a bit, since I hadn't the energy to do it yesterday. hmm.
Have a nice day everyone.