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still feeling really down. i have so much stress in my life i just can't handle it. all i want to do is curl up and cry. i can't though because it's too cold and my mind won't let me rest. decided to go stay with mum again and see if that helps. not sure for how long yet, i've been written off sick for six weeks. i just can't see anything changing if i stay here. i need love and protecting from the world. i wish i wasn't ill. why won't someone make me better? why do i have to do it all myself? there is so much to sort out with this stupid fucking house. i feel bad leaving it all with griff but i have no choice. i can't work and i can't stay in the flat all day everyday. looking forward to feeling better at home. mum can't pick me up till saturday which sucks but i only have tomorrow to get through now. today is almost over. got a fucking housing inspection tomorrow morning. i won't be here, i have dr provan to see at 9 and hopefully my meds to pick up. if not i'm going to have to see my doctor. i need a months worth so i don't have to pay at home. my pooter is fucked up too. it can't load my saved windows or some crap. i have lost everything :( i didn't even print off the photos from my holiday or save them anywhere else