not feeling so bad
feeling slightly positive about going home now. this time tomorrow i'll be all settled in. i am going to make a big effort and structure my free time. shower and dress everyday. mum has given me some facial cleanser and moisturiser to use twice a day. my skin is perfect now. it shows what making an effort can do. i'm going to clean my entire house too. get all the negative energy away. i want some christmas decorations but the celing is too high to reach :( not that i'm big on christmas anyway it just looks nice. not looking forward to the three hour drive, i get so car sick. poor mum has to drive home again. i said i'd get the train if she wanted but she said she didn't mind. spoke to sally yesterday which was really nice. i have known her for ten years now and met her once but i feel so close to her. i want to meet her again. perhaps that can be something to look forward to next year :)