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I'm at school, waiting around for literal hours until my next class (Natural Science), which makes me want to maim. It's the worst ever, but that's okay.
You know what I really enjoy? Expired colour film. Today I'm feeling really positive, like I could do things.
I'd like to be successful someday, but that means I have to start putting in a lot more time and a lot more effort, and stop being such a baby. I have to learn how to force myself on people, otherwise nobody will ever see what I do and nobody will ever want to pay me to do it.
Matt told me that I should make a website, but there's a problem with this. I don't feel as if I have a large enough body of work deserving of a website, but that's my problem always. I never feel like what I have is good enough or just enough in general - I need to like, work. A lot. And make a lot of things, even when I have a lot of other stuff to do.
I'm feeling alright about photo today, even. I know that it's not exactly what one could consider my "thing", but I enjoy it as a hobby. That's why I'm minoring in it, really. It's fun. Someday I would like a darkroom in my house, if and when I have a house, but it's a commitment. If I still live in Grand Rapids (which I'd like to NOT be doing by then) after I graduate, I could always get a membership to the UICA and use their darkroom.
Sometimes I think Matt and I are extremely compatible, but then I realize that we have a lot of the same life goals and that we're both terribly stubborn. This could either work out extremely well or extremely poorly. Having the same passions is a good thing, I think, but it was either a week or two weeks ago that we saw a speaker here at Kendall who spoke of the horrors of having to manage a career and the whole "family" thing. Not to say that I would even consider that as an option anytime soon, but still. The fact is, if I EVER have children I will be compromising either my happiness, my significant other's, or my children's. One of us is going to get shafted. Unless, of course, I get super famous somehow in the very near future (in the next ten years or so) and then have the benefit of doing what I want in that "I had a baby, get over it" recovery stage. Also, I would like to spend a lot of time in South America. Most people are not up for that. The truth is, though, as much as the idea of being "settled" scares me, at the same time it sounds like a really nice thing. Really, the main downside to Matt is that he doesn't speak Spanish as a first language. :-p And I'm mostly kidding about that, although it would be sweet if he did.
I think I should make a blog. An art blog. And that everyone should read it, and be like "hey, lookie that, that bitch can draw/paint/et. al.!" and tell everyone ever.
I just want my old Polaroid camera right now.
Also, my sweet new shoes gave me EXTREME blisters in the five minutes I wore them outside. This will take some getting used to...
Also, "That drum is my parents." (Thank you, David Sedaris. You're a funny man.)
Also, again, "Extensive mildew on the face of a recluse." (Again, David Sedaris. Yes, I write these down to giggle at later.)
So for future reference,
peregrineangthius.blogspot.com
You know what I really enjoy? Expired colour film. Today I'm feeling really positive, like I could do things.
I'd like to be successful someday, but that means I have to start putting in a lot more time and a lot more effort, and stop being such a baby. I have to learn how to force myself on people, otherwise nobody will ever see what I do and nobody will ever want to pay me to do it.
Matt told me that I should make a website, but there's a problem with this. I don't feel as if I have a large enough body of work deserving of a website, but that's my problem always. I never feel like what I have is good enough or just enough in general - I need to like, work. A lot. And make a lot of things, even when I have a lot of other stuff to do.
I'm feeling alright about photo today, even. I know that it's not exactly what one could consider my "thing", but I enjoy it as a hobby. That's why I'm minoring in it, really. It's fun. Someday I would like a darkroom in my house, if and when I have a house, but it's a commitment. If I still live in Grand Rapids (which I'd like to NOT be doing by then) after I graduate, I could always get a membership to the UICA and use their darkroom.
Sometimes I think Matt and I are extremely compatible, but then I realize that we have a lot of the same life goals and that we're both terribly stubborn. This could either work out extremely well or extremely poorly. Having the same passions is a good thing, I think, but it was either a week or two weeks ago that we saw a speaker here at Kendall who spoke of the horrors of having to manage a career and the whole "family" thing. Not to say that I would even consider that as an option anytime soon, but still. The fact is, if I EVER have children I will be compromising either my happiness, my significant other's, or my children's. One of us is going to get shafted. Unless, of course, I get super famous somehow in the very near future (in the next ten years or so) and then have the benefit of doing what I want in that "I had a baby, get over it" recovery stage. Also, I would like to spend a lot of time in South America. Most people are not up for that. The truth is, though, as much as the idea of being "settled" scares me, at the same time it sounds like a really nice thing. Really, the main downside to Matt is that he doesn't speak Spanish as a first language. :-p And I'm mostly kidding about that, although it would be sweet if he did.
I think I should make a blog. An art blog. And that everyone should read it, and be like "hey, lookie that, that bitch can draw/paint/et. al.!" and tell everyone ever.
I just want my old Polaroid camera right now.
Also, my sweet new shoes gave me EXTREME blisters in the five minutes I wore them outside. This will take some getting used to...
Also, "That drum is my parents." (Thank you, David Sedaris. You're a funny man.)
Also, again, "Extensive mildew on the face of a recluse." (Again, David Sedaris. Yes, I write these down to giggle at later.)
So for future reference,
peregrineangthius.blogspot.com