a lot has changed
it has been a while since my last update, so much has happened.
my son isn't doing well in school and there is not much i can do to fix it. it has to be him, he has to want better. He has to do better.
molly is dying from being very old, i'm trying to keep her comfy while her time is ending. in some ways she reminds me of my mom, and i feel extra sad.
i have officially given up on amanda, after a year and $5000 spent on trying to bring us together while all she did was play games with me. amanda and emma were the only 2 of my 14 ex-girlfriends who could have renewed a relationship with me, now it's only emma. amanda has lost her option to renew, so all she is left with is the forever-friend guarantee. i've been told by the people who know us that i had gone above and beyond what any of them would have done to try and bring someone back in to their life. i can at least try to feel okay about that.
any plans that i had about moving from el centro are over now.
i still feel lonely, but since february i've felt less alone. a new friend, veronica has moved in with us and it's been real nice having another adult in the house i can talk to. i enjoy her being here and i think michael does too. things feel a little less out of balance and i'm okay with that.
i guess that's it for now, at least what i can remember lol.
my son isn't doing well in school and there is not much i can do to fix it. it has to be him, he has to want better. He has to do better.
molly is dying from being very old, i'm trying to keep her comfy while her time is ending. in some ways she reminds me of my mom, and i feel extra sad.
i have officially given up on amanda, after a year and $5000 spent on trying to bring us together while all she did was play games with me. amanda and emma were the only 2 of my 14 ex-girlfriends who could have renewed a relationship with me, now it's only emma. amanda has lost her option to renew, so all she is left with is the forever-friend guarantee. i've been told by the people who know us that i had gone above and beyond what any of them would have done to try and bring someone back in to their life. i can at least try to feel okay about that.
any plans that i had about moving from el centro are over now.
i still feel lonely, but since february i've felt less alone. a new friend, veronica has moved in with us and it's been real nice having another adult in the house i can talk to. i enjoy her being here and i think michael does too. things feel a little less out of balance and i'm okay with that.
i guess that's it for now, at least what i can remember lol.