down swing of the pendulum
people are worried about me drinking. some haven't been around for the last down swing. this would be the 4th? i think so maybe the 5th. only a few people know i'm an alcoholic i just got a handle on my problem and it's under control. when i break my alcoholic rules too often, (only did it once or twice) everything is fine. little do they know. little, do, they, know...
i get that they care and worry but i'm as okay as i can be.
the booze resets my system, keeps me feeling empty. i've been feeling things, things i don't feel and i don't need feelings right now. i'm not clear on what's going on with anything right now and once more greens are not enough. i'm at odds with my self and the drink drowns out both voices so i can just feel like me.
i get that they care and worry but i'm as okay as i can be.
the booze resets my system, keeps me feeling empty. i've been feeling things, things i don't feel and i don't need feelings right now. i'm not clear on what's going on with anything right now and once more greens are not enough. i'm at odds with my self and the drink drowns out both voices so i can just feel like me.